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Oh my god you guys. . . Have you ever read a book and felt completely, drained? Lololol! I mean, my head is so fucking lost right now. For the first time in a very very long time I read a book and not just any book, a love novel! Called "Spremna da se veze" and what it means is, "Ready to tie" literally.You can add "herself" at the end. It's a little one, just 200 pages, I started yesterday. . . I finished around noon today! ^_^ I could NOT leave it, just sitting there on my coffee table and me not knowing what's happening to Matt and Jenny, just no. . . It's a Serbian book and the first time I have ever read anything like this and. . . OHMYGODILOVEIT. I love it you guys, I am so excited for some reason! I started reading it with my eyebrows raised and by the maybe 60th page, a smile did not come off my face! I laughed and felt butterflies multiple times over. Gosh! I'll tell you what the story is about but first, let me just say... I ...

Guys...GUYS! I am so hooked up on this! I want to say if you haven't watched the show or played the game that you're insane and that I want to kill you, but to be fair - I started watching the show 3 days ago haha. I have watched all of the 4 seasons even though it seems impossible but I don't have a problem starting early in the morning or after school and not sleeping for this. I was so hooked, it is so fucking good! ^_^ I don't recommend this to people who are sensitive or really squeamish to blood and organs and just dead people. I won't spoil it, I will just say, YOU WON'T REGRET IT! Give it a chance, it didn't attract me the first 2 episodes, but after that I think adrenaline didn't stop sprinting through my body. :3 At first, I was so pissed at two characters, Lori and Shane, if you watch you'll know why. Just the sight of Lori pissed me off. -.-' She got okay after the second season for me. Shane got a bit crazy and after his hair...

Let me start off by saying that I am the kind of person that will lose interest in things that everyone is raving about too much and too hard. One of the reasons I didn't like Minecraft or Diablo, I just got sick of them after awhile, no matter how truly GOOD the game is. I feel like people get fangirly over games and shows just as Bieber's fans are; It get's really annoying. It's such an ignorant thing to do I know, but I'm sorry, I don't like it. I will in spite dislike it.  Which leads me to another point. I know next to nothing about the Pokémon game or about Pokemons in general after 2003-5 maybe. All the Pokémon I truly know and that were in the show THEN were like, Pikachu of course, Charmander, Charizard,Squirtle, Clefairy, JigglyPuff and many more but from the 700 there are now, I know less than 100 truly. I used to love and watch the show when I was little and I remember very few things about it. I only know Ash and maybe a few characters. But ...

I can't get over their cuteness, of kitties or animals in general. I truly don't understand people who just plainly don't like animals at all. I don't get that logic and I will never be able to understand what goes inside someone's mind when they see something as so innocent and pure and just fucking adorable as a kitten, puppy, penguin, hedgehog, a little freaking mouse, not a rat, a mouse, a porpoise, guinea pig...  I understand that someone doesn't like inscets or animals like snakes. Those may be somehow majestic in their own twisted way but they are animals that should be feared to a certain level, but a kitten?  How much of a cold heart can you have to not at least feel compassion for a kitten? MANY people don't like grown adult cats and I can I GUESS understand that, but I have a friend who said he doesn't like cats at all, they even scare him! He was afraid of my cats as well and he like, ran away from them practically and they felt it....

Is there a person in this world that will say anything other than, BAD, WRONG, HORRIBLE, SELFISH?  What is there to say? It's wrong. Betraying someone's trust is like the most horrible crime, it ruins everything. Not only the relationship but the person. The person becomes more insecure, has trust issues afterwards, why do that to someone? Don't cheat, break up with them on Monday and on Monday or Tuesday night, bang the other girl/guy you wanted, but don't be in a relationship with someone and go around with someone else, while your partner relies on you. It's fucking WRONG and unforgivable. I would never forgive someone for cheating on me. Cheating isn't a mistake, it's a choice.  You choose to find someone else for your own reason you THOUGHT was justified. THERE IS NO EXCUSE FOR THAT! Sure, getting together with someone else after two hours of your break up is in a way betrayal, I've had that happen to me but dude, why cheat ?!  It's gro...

Okay, I only found one thing worth mentioning! :3 It is something that I will charish with me until I have my own kids, and maybe even after that. My best friend made it for me at the end of proom, like at the end of Junior High.  It's a pretty note book, with the heart she made all herself! People would say nothing about it is absolutely perfect but to me it is! It's filled with everything she ever had to say to me,all of her thoughts, fears for school ending, drawings of her and I, it's so beautiful! She gave it to me when we met one morning before school, I walked with her to her school. I walked back to my bus station and I could not read it on the way. I almost lost my way 'cause my face was buried in the notebook, I was smiling all the way there, I think people looked at me weird. I'm guessing, I didn't see them very well...  We have a picture together from proom but I don't wanna show that, many other people are in it behind it, that wouldn...

Okay this is going to be hard... Btw, I know it may seem like Im asking for a robot, but you know what... Meet Michael, you'll get all I'm looking for! :3 Make me laugh! (Fun) This may sound weird, but the moment someone makes me laugh like, naturally, something in me flutters above in the sky. ;3 That sounds so cheesy but it's true. Of course, not every single guy but if I find you off the blank attractive and you make me laugh, you're headed for a good start to make me like you. Note!; I don't mean jokes like, Oh why did the chicken do that or how does the blonde do this and that, no! I hate those kinds of jokes! I understand them, I understand what they meant but I do not find them funny, unless you want a smirk out of me. Then alright. P.S. There has to be chemistry involved! Be nice! Do I need to talk about this? I think that's kind of obvious but there are some guys out there who find it to being a jerk will make a girl interested more. I'm not on...

Well fuck, I have no idea what to write. I don't have anything to confess that isn't SUPER SUPER SUPER private, or something about my parents which is not wise to talk about.  A secret... well If I told you, it wouldn't be a secret anymore, now would it. :3 I guess... Here's a very small, insignificant, stupid confession.  Even though, I think I've always had a crush on Vuk and Marko from my class. Yes even Marko.  Marko was a sort of trouble maker and he was always messy and so obnoxious and gross with his friends, but he wanted to fit in and he wanted to impress other people with everything he can do. And he was really really handsome always to be honest. Vuk was just super cuuute and a brainiack! That kid is a true genius, I'm not even kidding. Easily could become our second Einstein! :3  I realized Marko isn't like that at all and he is a true freaking sweetheart in 4 walls after proom but of course, too little, too late. :)

Same freaking sex Dramatizing As in, when someone, especially in my class has a boyfriend, the moment something isn't up to their liking or expectations they momentarily find the need to dramatize about it, saying the guy has changed, she can't stand him anymore, he's too stressful (He makes her actually think for more than 10seconds) and so on and so forth. Leading up from that, Oh my god, I wanna break up with him, this is just too much... You've been together for a week... Let the guy breath. Selfishness When a guy does something bad, you have to go on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on about how he's wrong, how much he's an idiot, unfair, jerk, retard, asshole, how he needs to change and you have the balls of steel when you're sending that over a text, (Yet you admit you'd never be able to do it in person). He needs to apologize, you don't give a shit, it's his fault, you couldn't care less to find out if b...

Well, these is a few things.  First one the list is school. I'm scared of the future as it is and thinking the worst when it comes to school scares and worries me. Like, if I maybe fail a class, or worse, fail a year. I'm sure I won't fail a whole year, but as an example; Biology and stuff like Physics kick me in the balls! I'm not a bad student, at all but eeh.. I guess that's first. The second thing is my health. This will sound very stupid but especially in the past two years, I've had health and sort of, ''mental'' problems because of everything that is going on. Till this day I have some symptoms and sometimes I feel it's getting worse and worse. No one really knows about this as much as me 'cause I almost NEVER talk about my problems or anything that is going on with me. I always have this voice in the back of my head that I can take care of things myself and about myself on my own and I really do, but I still do not share i...

I am seriously pissed off at the moment. For two reasons that caught my attention just now when Alex took his survey. For him, who is probably reading this, I suggest you don't continue 'cause we don't agree on this and I am just sharing out MY opinion. (READ TILL THE END IF YOU HAVE ANY INTENTION OF PARTICIPATING IN THE CONVERSATION) What's this thing about people thinking homosexuality being a sickness or a disease? A disease?! Are you just hearing yourself? Are you fucking real right now? I'm sorry if I seem like I'm hating on people who do find it as that, but let's be real, I kinda am. You cannot say, you cannot say that you're okay with having friends with a different sexual group than you and say they shouldn't be respected 'cause it's a disease. People who said this will understand. You cannot do that, that is just pure discrimination of the person. I will not get into the fact if it as a ''disease'' or not, you...

Okay, this is kind of hard, I'm not even sure why. Deciding to which people I want to talk about is difficult. I have Poroner on my mind, Kevin maybe and.... Do I need to point out names? It'd be weird to just type it out without anyone knowing for who it is, though. I don't know! This is hard for me! Alright... Let's start. I have no idea how many times I have mentioned this, but it's something I cannot get over or will ever until he realizes it truly. I am too much of a coward to show this to him personally, so he'll only read this if he get's on my blog on his own, unless someone shows him. I am talking about Poroner. You guys have no idea how much that guy means to me. I truly know how annoying it is to spam it around and I really try not to, this is like the 3rd time I write it in the two years I have this blog, but I really cannot wrap it around my mind. 1.  I am so thankful to him (he'd probably react like, dude, chill, I get it). This...

This turned into a deep post even though that wasn't my intention but my words got the best of me. I meant to just say a few words about the song Numb, but it turned into a "confession" of some sort. If you're not in the mood to read about something rather sad, don't go down. It's about my life, me, my dad.

Soul mate - Two little words, one big concept. A belief that someone, somewhere is holding the key to your heart, and your dream house. All you have to do is find them. So, where is this person? And if you loved someone and it didn't work out, does that mean they weren't your soul mate? Were they just a runner-up contestant in this game show we call "Happily ever after"? And, as you move from age box to age box and the contestants get fewer and fewer, are your chances of finding your soul mate less and less? Soul mates, reality or torture device?  

Guys, It's the 15th of December and I don't feel a thing. I feel like we're at the beginning of September or something,and in like 15 days it's 2014... For Catholics soon it's Christmas. what the fuck... I am not so excited for 2014... I want it to come, I'm hoping it'll be a better year than 2013. I'm not making any sense! I want it to come but I don't have my hopes for it... 2013 was HORRIBLE for me... I absolutely loved 2012, hopefully I will 2014... 2012 was awesome... It was a little rough at first, with Kevs and all but I just went into a whole new journey at the time, thanks to Poroner. ^^ Something new was happening and I met Mikey that year and we got together then. A little while after I met Huii.. Not looking back, not any drama, fight, immature blow-off over Angel's and I's blog doesn't matter, none of it, it was all with the people I cared and met just not long before. ^^ I can't even say how I'd label my years...

Psycho reminded me of some.. and I just thought it'd be cute to share. :3 Okay, first on my list was, I wasn't VERY little but I was a lot younger than now. It was like maybe 3rd grade, so I was what, 9? :3 My dad works in shifts and mom works in a firm, so her schedule is always the same. Through 7am to 3pm. When dad would work the 1st shift, he leaves before mom, around 5am. Since I was a hyperactive child, I usually never slept or I woke up early because I slept the whole day before.. and I would ask dad for school money. My parents never had small bills, always gave me at least 5 or sometimes 10 dollars (That's either 500 or 1000 dinara) which is A LOT. I'd hide the money and when mom would wake up, she's ask if dad gave me money and I'd say No. >;3 Sounds like I was a little meanii as a child but noo.. It was cute to them too. :3 Also! I used to write on our white walls with mom's make-up... Like the first 3 times, I ruin all of it! I didn...

I usually have nightmares when it comes to dreams. My dreams usually consist of either abnormal things that describe the things that are bothering me or stressing me out, or they are random and some inverted situation of how I'd like things to be. It's kind of confusing. To be honest, I very rarely dream anything, but when I do, it's a cycle and it has a reason. For me, it rarely happens that after a bad day, I dream anything or have a nightmare though that has happened if It upset me really bad. Usually, I don't dream anything until bad things repeatedly happen or the stress keeps on growing or moving onto the next day and the next, you get what I'm saying? Me being me, I keep the stress in and I don't cry, I don't let it out except for the usual methods; To take it out on the people that get across my path even though they don't deserve it but I tend to control that. If the stress keeps growing and moving on and I don't do anything, there w...

I just now realized how much it can remind me of Poroner... at least from two years. Where was this when I needed it. ._. Not everything... just some parts I believe... Actually, maybe even all of it. I can add this for a few more people but he's on my mind at the moment. I might do this for a few other people. We clawed, we chained, our hearts in vain. We jumped, never asking why.  Jumped like, we rushed into things, never asking why or how it would end up. We kissed, I fell under your spell. A love, no one could deny.  Fell under his spell, I've talked about this. He was my leader, sort of... And yeah, no one could deny that I loved him, I did. Don't you ever say I just walked away.  I will always want you.  He can't ever say I just walked away because he did, I stayed. I can't live a lie running for my life. I will always want you.  Well, just the want you part. I came in like a wrecking ball! Sort off.. I just sort of pooped in between and...

Let's be clear, I hate it. This; And similar is NOT the Miley we/I know. I understand she's growing up and need to develop her own style, music and everything that comes with the music business and all, but if this is truly HER style, then I'd be happier if she stayed Hannah Montana forever. I hate the change, I hate the violence, it's all so vulgar and ugly. I don't see anything sexy, hot, beautiful, interesting or even watch worthy when you watch her videos. The song " We can't stop " is absolutely idiotic... "It's our party, we can do what we want". -.-  The rhythm is okay surprisingly at some parts but when you combine the words and the video, it's EW. There's nothing smart in there, not that there was too much of it before too, but this is just ridiculous. I don't know why I was shocked when I saw " Wrecking ball ", when I saw her naked completely hanging from a ball. I know I should expect it, but Jes...

We don't talk for awhile, you're busy, I never have Internet, we can't reach each other at same times... I lose hope, with each day it get's harder to keep a brave face. I start falling and I ask myself what's it all worth, why am I waiting this long, what will I get with this, all I'm doing is waiting and wasting my time here! I get angry at myself and at you, I wanna yell at you and scream how you're using me and how you're never gonna decide! I stop thinking about your pain, mine becomes more important and much worse! You're not there through all of this.. I get angrier and sadder every time I see "Seen" and you didn't respond and I think you dissed me and that you don't give a shit about what was written! I make myself believe you're not worth it, I make myself believe I'm better off without you and how I'll be just fine! ... But then you respond... I wanna start an argument and diss you forever! But then you sa...