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Has anyone ever felt like they know they're so upset deep down that they just WANT to be angry instead. Just to numb the pain. I'm sounding really really dramatic and it's really not as bad as I make it seem but I am hurt and seriously - The past few WEEKS, I want to be angry and I actually am bitter all the time. I don't think there was a moment between this time that I didn't get angry or annoyed with someone over the smallest thing, especially if it's a facebook message. I've been avoiding even my mom the most 'cause she has the nagging habit and she asks too many questions at once - I BLOW inside when that happens.  It get's me so angry and I just want to tell her Bite Me all the time, but of course I don't. I hate that being angry about everything doesn't help 'cause I'm still not any better. Sad or angry it doesn't mean I'm getting any better. Although Poroner has been a help. It's amazing how with him very littl...

Okay, so 3 days ago I was at the store and was just walking around not knowing at all what to do and I saw these adorable mini puzzle's of 54 pieces. They're called Trefl Puzzle and there were all kinds of designs. Mickey Mouse, Winnie The Pooh, Sponge Bob, even Teletubbiesi! I searched and searched and of course I found a puppy and kitty one! They were I think $1 and I could not resist to buy it! I came home and puzzled it right away! It was not as easy as I thought it would be but it's cute  It's still puzzled up on my table, I didn't want to pack it up again so it's just staying. :3 I find it so pretty and I think I'll even frame it! Now, what I found adorable is that while I was puzzling this, I saw this;  This was already when I called out ''Kitty!'' but Marbles was already licking Teeny with his paw around her! It was so freaking cute, Teeny purring like crazy and I love they close their eyes at everything they're doin...

You tell me which is the cutest...

Okay, I think you should all know if you already don't about a famous YouTube-r slash Comic book drawer and I believe writer. I'm not a very good fan haha. I cannot put into words at how beautiful and realistic and just all together AMAZING this man's drawings are and how much of talent and skill he's got. It's remarkable to me, I have never seen anything like this. I am going to show you some art and a link to the video. First of all his YouTube channel;  https://www.youtube.com/user/markcrilley?feature=watch  You will not regret this, trust your old dear friend Marija.   I can just go on and on how amazing these are. I'm just gonna show you a few I truly find amazing... This actually makes me really uncomfortable...  This is a painting There are so many other ones guys, but I truly cannot show each and every one but this man inspires me. I think the ones that read my blog know I am impatient so I don't have the patience to take hour...

 Oh my god, today has been hectic... Yes, I (and my dad) saved a kitty today! For days I have been hearing a kitty meowing and meowing and meowing for days and today I finally saw her but she ran from me. I thought I'd leave her alone for awhile but after like ten minutes, I heard again that desperate meowing, asking for help and I ran to the basement and the kitty was just sitting there looking at me COVERED in grease! But that bad grease, that is dangerous for it's tiny little body. I called dad immediately and we right away took her upstairs and jumped her in the shower and I was so surprised she was so calm. Of course she was, she was afraid for her own life, she took any help someone offered. We showered her and showered and showered, the grease WOULD NOT come off 'cause we didn't have that specific shampoo for cats or anything, so we tried to dry her afterwards, we did all we could, tried to feed her and she did for awhile but she was like, in a trauma or so...

Let me start off by saying that I am the kind of person that will lose interest in things that everyone is raving about too much and too hard. One of the reasons I didn't like Minecraft or Diablo, I just got sick of them after awhile, no matter how truly GOOD the game is. I feel like people get fangirly over games and shows just as Bieber's fans are; It get's really annoying. It's such an ignorant thing to do I know, but I'm sorry, I don't like it. I will in spite dislike it.  Which leads me to another point. I know next to nothing about the Pokémon game or about Pokemons in general after 2003-5 maybe. All the Pokémon I truly know and that were in the show THEN were like, Pikachu of course, Charmander, Charizard,Squirtle, Clefairy, JigglyPuff and many more but from the 700 there are now, I know less than 100 truly. I used to love and watch the show when I was little and I remember very few things about it. I only know Ash and maybe a few characters. But ...

I can't get over their cuteness, of kitties or animals in general. I truly don't understand people who just plainly don't like animals at all. I don't get that logic and I will never be able to understand what goes inside someone's mind when they see something as so innocent and pure and just fucking adorable as a kitten, puppy, penguin, hedgehog, a little freaking mouse, not a rat, a mouse, a porpoise, guinea pig...  I understand that someone doesn't like inscets or animals like snakes. Those may be somehow majestic in their own twisted way but they are animals that should be feared to a certain level, but a kitten?  How much of a cold heart can you have to not at least feel compassion for a kitten? MANY people don't like grown adult cats and I can I GUESS understand that, but I have a friend who said he doesn't like cats at all, they even scare him! He was afraid of my cats as well and he like, ran away from them practically and they felt it....

Is there a person in this world that will say anything other than, BAD, WRONG, HORRIBLE, SELFISH?  What is there to say? It's wrong. Betraying someone's trust is like the most horrible crime, it ruins everything. Not only the relationship but the person. The person becomes more insecure, has trust issues afterwards, why do that to someone? Don't cheat, break up with them on Monday and on Monday or Tuesday night, bang the other girl/guy you wanted, but don't be in a relationship with someone and go around with someone else, while your partner relies on you. It's fucking WRONG and unforgivable. I would never forgive someone for cheating on me. Cheating isn't a mistake, it's a choice.  You choose to find someone else for your own reason you THOUGHT was justified. THERE IS NO EXCUSE FOR THAT! Sure, getting together with someone else after two hours of your break up is in a way betrayal, I've had that happen to me but dude, why cheat ?!  It's gro...

Mom just came in my room and told me to close my eyes firmly and I did. She placed something in front of me and I didn't wanna open my eyes so I kinda just tried to "ransack" it with my fingers and there was something like, ickyyy... I was like, what the hell is this! She was like, open your eyes and I said I don't want to. I told her to close my eyes for me as I grabbed SOMETHING with my fork and she told me I did, I was scared to put it in my mouth but I did it!  Guess what it was?!  A sliced piece of orange! I right away said, "Oh! Fruit salad!" I love that, my favorite thing in the world! :3 Fruit! She actually did it 'cause we went to a "restaurant" look alike the other day and I ordered a fruit salad. Last time I was there I got a Fruit Cup that was with fruit and ice cream and whipped cream! It was really good and pretty! At the bottom, that's vanilla ice cream, in the middle there was I think oranges, pineapples, apples, ...

Okay, I only found one thing worth mentioning! :3 It is something that I will charish with me until I have my own kids, and maybe even after that. My best friend made it for me at the end of proom, like at the end of Junior High.  It's a pretty note book, with the heart she made all herself! People would say nothing about it is absolutely perfect but to me it is! It's filled with everything she ever had to say to me,all of her thoughts, fears for school ending, drawings of her and I, it's so beautiful! She gave it to me when we met one morning before school, I walked with her to her school. I walked back to my bus station and I could not read it on the way. I almost lost my way 'cause my face was buried in the notebook, I was smiling all the way there, I think people looked at me weird. I'm guessing, I didn't see them very well...  We have a picture together from proom but I don't wanna show that, many other people are in it behind it, that wouldn...

Okay this is going to be hard... Btw, I know it may seem like Im asking for a robot, but you know what... Meet Michael, you'll get all I'm looking for! :3 Make me laugh! (Fun) This may sound weird, but the moment someone makes me laugh like, naturally, something in me flutters above in the sky. ;3 That sounds so cheesy but it's true. Of course, not every single guy but if I find you off the blank attractive and you make me laugh, you're headed for a good start to make me like you. Note!; I don't mean jokes like, Oh why did the chicken do that or how does the blonde do this and that, no! I hate those kinds of jokes! I understand them, I understand what they meant but I do not find them funny, unless you want a smirk out of me. Then alright. P.S. There has to be chemistry involved! Be nice! Do I need to talk about this? I think that's kind of obvious but there are some guys out there who find it to being a jerk will make a girl interested more. I'm not on...

I don't have piercings, much less tattos. But I think Americans find ear piercing in that category, obviously, but not even that. I used to, to like, 3 years ago but I didn't and don't like to wear earrings so I never did and my wholes just shut down on themselves. At least the back whole... Get your mind out of the gutter, no I'm not talking about my front or my anus, Jesus. ._.  I mean the whole on the back of my ear, geez. Other than that, nothing.  But on a side note, if we're talking about jewelry, I'm gonna say I absolutely love necklaces and rings. Maybe bracelets but I'm very very very picky on there, it has to be a specific kind for me to like it.  The only problem there is that I cannot wear bijouterie (Imitated jewelry), that leaves green, rusty stains on my skin 'cause the color wears off. People call that allergy but It's not a real one, I just can't wear them while many people can. It has to have a little bit of silver or go...

Okay, this is kind of hard, I'm not even sure why. Deciding to which people I want to talk about is difficult. I have Poroner on my mind, Kevin maybe and.... Do I need to point out names? It'd be weird to just type it out without anyone knowing for who it is, though. I don't know! This is hard for me! Alright... Let's start. I have no idea how many times I have mentioned this, but it's something I cannot get over or will ever until he realizes it truly. I am too much of a coward to show this to him personally, so he'll only read this if he get's on my blog on his own, unless someone shows him. I am talking about Poroner. You guys have no idea how much that guy means to me. I truly know how annoying it is to spam it around and I really try not to, this is like the 3rd time I write it in the two years I have this blog, but I really cannot wrap it around my mind. 1.  I am so thankful to him (he'd probably react like, dude, chill, I get it). This...

Good morning everyoone, I know it's not Christmas for you, but it is Christmas for me! Yeey... Not really. I am woken so freaking early, this is unbelievably early for me and I woke up very very grumpy. I got myself dressed, brushed my teeth, washed my face, all that good stuff. I'm going to slap on a bit of eye make-up on and maybe lipgloss, and most likely do a selfie, for you guys to see even though you don't really care. :) I started styling my hair a different way. I used to keep it my hair line or however you call it right in the middle of my head, now it's more to the right and I have sort of bangs. I've forgotten what it's like honestly, but it looks very nice! ... I picked the wrong day to put on mom's mascara I swear. My eyelashes are freakishly long naturally, this mascara makes them hit against my glasses... It's freaking annoying! x3 I am quite nervous for today... I wanna be happy and cheerful 'cause Christmas means everything to my ...

Hellow everyone. Feeling kinda down right now to be honest. I just realized today is January 3rd and in four days it's January 7th... Not yey. It occurred to me Houston is going to leave in 4 days for the Air Force and he'll be gone for two and a half months completely. :c But though! There is one thought that's been keeping me very much up the whole 'morning' (I woke up at 11:30, so like, 3 hours passed, it's still morning for me, haha)! We were talking last night, or well early this morning and I mentioned I would love to have his hoodie. It's really awesome, its completely black with those white thingies around your hood, but it looks really amazing on him! He was like, ''Well I COULD send it to you...''. I got excited but I don't want him too at the same time. I don't want to take it away from him 'cause I would use it around my house and maybe even sleep in it. It'd be really big for me, like, maybe two sizes up away fr...

Charlie failed at first time sex with Mia 'cause he was sober. Mia: Charlie, listen to me. I love YOU, not your money or your car or your house or your skills in bed. Charlie: What's left?! Mia: Charlie... Charlie: Come on, come on, you're saying that if I was some pencil weenie guy, living in a shack and taking the bus to my job selling oranges in the free way off ramp you'd still love me? Mia: Yes, I would still love you. Charlie: Okay, I understand now. Mia: Good. Charlie: You're insane. Mia: Why, because I love the real you? Charlie: No, no, because you think there is a real me. Mia: Would you believe I loved you if my eyes had rolled back my head had blown off? Charlie: It would be a start. Mia: Alright, I guess we're just gonna have to try again. Charlie: Hang on, hang on, how am I gonna know you're not faking it just to make me feel better? Mia: Honey, if I was gonna fake it, don't you think I would've done it the first time...

I went to school today, I got some of my final grades after our 1st semester. Today I know I will have a fucking B in English, that is bugging me BIG TIME, Arts A, Chemistry C... :3 I got back home and slept for two hours... I was really tired. I got up and felt like I had been laying down for 20 hours so I went to to take a walk that took around 40 minutes, and I was back home in an exact hour. I got me some snacks. I got myself some Pionir Menthol bombones. Two packs of chips, two KitKatWhite candy bars and Choco Biscuits. :3 Yey! I love mint stuff so much. :3 And I'm sorry, I have to get these cats out of here. -.- Oh and coke, duh! I am sitting, nibbling on my bombones, and watching Two and a half men! Season one, episode 4.. Yeaaah, love me this show! And oh oh oh! The plan is back on! I am going to the movies with Alex on Saturday, we ARE watching The Hobbit 2 in 3D! FUCKING AWESOME, I can't wait!! The movie is so fantastic! :DI can't waa-a-ait! It will be so ...

I just fed my kitties some fish from a can, they absolutely love that! For those who don't know, I have 3 kitties and two big cats that are both female. They're sisters actually but they don't remember each other 'cause they were apart for awhile. I wanna cuddle my kitties so bad right now but they just ate, if I move them around in my arms I hear their stomach disagreeing. ;///; I don't want my babies to vomit. I'll feed them again but it's a horrible feeling... I am gently scratching Teeny's ears and I stopped to write, she gave me that look like, ''Who told you to stop?''. :3 I have one female kitty, Teeny 'cause she is, guys she's so small... Her head is almost the same size as my fist and trust me, I have small hands. I think you can see her she's actually very small.. I can't show the other ones 'cause they're so hyper and they're getting away from me as soon as I grab'em so maybe later when ...

Okay guys, I spent the last 7 hours watching at Kalel and Anthony's videos. I gave some Smosh videos a chance but no, I can't. The only thing I sort of find amusing is Anthony's face, and not even amusing, just handsome. :3 But yeah, I spent literally like, the last 6 hours and 40 minutes just watching and re-watching. I started with all of Kalel's old channels and vlogs and I was actually surprised the couple of channels other than WonderlandWardrobe and WULAS  (WatchUsLiveAndStuff) have so little vlogs. Maybe like 5 tops. But anyway! I first started with WULAS which doesn't really make sense because I'm actually going backwards but it's okay. I've already like watched, all of the 110 videos but I re-watched them all from the beginning and it was still so very entertaining and I still laughed at many of them. Then I crossed onto WW and It's really cool to. I'm getting used to Kalel with blueish-greenish hair, she's really cute. ^^ I re...