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Okay, I only found one thing worth mentioning! :3 It is something that I will charish with me until I have my own kids, and maybe even after that. My best friend made it for me at the end of proom, like at the end of Junior High.  It's a pretty note book, with the heart she made all herself! People would say nothing about it is absolutely perfect but to me it is! It's filled with everything she ever had to say to me,all of her thoughts, fears for school ending, drawings of her and I, it's so beautiful! She gave it to me when we met one morning before school, I walked with her to her school. I walked back to my bus station and I could not read it on the way. I almost lost my way 'cause my face was buried in the notebook, I was smiling all the way there, I think people looked at me weird. I'm guessing, I didn't see them very well...  We have a picture together from proom but I don't wanna show that, many other people are in it behind it, that wouldn...

Okay, this is kind of hard, I'm not even sure why. Deciding to which people I want to talk about is difficult. I have Poroner on my mind, Kevin maybe and.... Do I need to point out names? It'd be weird to just type it out without anyone knowing for who it is, though. I don't know! This is hard for me! Alright... Let's start. I have no idea how many times I have mentioned this, but it's something I cannot get over or will ever until he realizes it truly. I am too much of a coward to show this to him personally, so he'll only read this if he get's on my blog on his own, unless someone shows him. I am talking about Poroner. You guys have no idea how much that guy means to me. I truly know how annoying it is to spam it around and I really try not to, this is like the 3rd time I write it in the two years I have this blog, but I really cannot wrap it around my mind. 1.  I am so thankful to him (he'd probably react like, dude, chill, I get it). This...

Haai everyone. Well, this next thing cheered my day up. I was sad because of my previous post but! For some more info, my friend Angel started an art blog just yesterday.  Angel's art blog . Her drawings are super cool and I think you'll agree, I think they are. She started drawing, what I think was originally for her and her boyfriend but it kinda reversed to me, I might be wrong but she made a speedpaint of it!  Pretend game! It's so freaking beautiful! The finished piece is just wow. It's her's, it's her full credit and I'll actually ask if I can use it on twitter, or somewhere, I don't know. I'm the black panther by the way and she's a cheetah. I love the fact we're holding each other's tail's and the background is all like pretty, like we're on a meadow. :3 It's so freaking beautiful! Thank you. This cheered me up. It's really sweet!

Hellow everyone. I want to start this off first of all with an apology, I'm sorry I was so inactive the past monthS, but I'm not really in the greatest place at my house with the Internet and my father so I try on weekends as much as I can but when I just don't have the inspiration, blogging just doesn't work. Anyway! This was originally supposed to be for my dear friend, Alex,  who had an awesome idea today which was to start blogging. He got the idea from me obviously, so he did. He just started, made the blog an hour ago or so - so be kind.  Comic King's blog of awesomeness He mainly said everything I am supposed to say in his introduction and I am to be completely honest with you guys, a little jealous. He has a better vocabulary when it comes to English and I always try to look up to people like that, Dean is one of the many candidates but I always fail. Anyway! Geez. If you're into gaming, talking about gaming, sharing opinions, sports, or even rand...

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I broke down an hour ago... I started freaking out,I didn't know what to do, I cried, I panicked, I had no idea what to do and I only typed 4 words, "I need your help...". We haven't talked for awhile, even if we did it was short... but I turned to you and without a second thought you asked me what's wrong and told me I'm worrying you. Do you guys know who I am talking about? My best friend. I didn't even realize what an angel she was to me until it all had ended. I started freaking out, typing novels of how I felt, things I have been keeping in for months because I felt like I couldn't say it to anyone, that I was alone... I wrote paragraphs and paragraphs and even though she didn't say MUCH exact advices, she knew exactly what to say to calm me down without even knowing it... Yes, that does make sense to me. She calmed me down in a second and things we're okay.. There was no more confusion, no more pain or tears, I was just calm and I fe...

I was checking how apart my country is from Ohio and I got 4909 miles. ;__; That's around 7000 km I think, but anyway! I checked for Greece as well, or well Athens and we are apart by only 1.107,5 km! It's a 10 hour drive! I told Poroner that and he said he knew and he was like "we could easily meet for a weekend o.o" and I was like... I know right!! And it's not a bad idea at all!! With a car it just might take less! I've always wanted to visit Greece, especially Athens but I'd like to stay somewhere where the sea is close. Though if I went now, there's no way I could swim but at least I'd take walks or something! I'm loving this more and more! I'll spray this around my family, work out the bugs, I don't need much food on the trip! Snacks will do. I survive a 12 hour bus ride to Montenegro with 3 sandwiches and snacks. I'd sleep most of the time. :D I'll start looking up some options! And possibly meet Poroner! That'd ...

My best friend.. I love so very very much. We've gone so apart ever since highschool. I didn't want to believe that we would ever have to be apart like this. She left me a message on twitter and I realized how much I miss her. She is the one person I feel loves me for me, ME, with everything I am and how I am. I've known her forever, she's always been there, since I still had my baby teeth. Slowly growing apart after school hurt so much, so much I didn't want to admit it, thinking I'd sound pathetic but I just made things worse... She also felt the same, but she never gave up because she cared for me. I should've showed her more love, the love I know she deserves. She made into a GREAT school and I was SO proud of her for that! She never ever judged me, what kind of a student I am. Her parents didn't like me and told her not to be friends with me anymore and for awhile she listened but at the end she said that it's her choice and if her parents k...

Hellow.   I know at what time I am writing this but I couldn't resist talking about something that happened to me a few days ago. I think it was Wednesday. :3   I went to buy a few books I needed like Chemistry and a Grammar and I did. I decided to walk back home and listen to some music. The weather was relaxing and I honestly wanted to waste a little time before dad went to work. ^w^   I was just about to cross a very wide street, and I looked down on my phone to change my song and when I looked up I saw 2 boys walking towards me, already smiling - Danilo and Matija. <3<3<3   I felt butterflies! Danilo and Matija are my middle and junior high friends! I didn't see them for I think 3 months. They we're already smiling to me and I said "Hiiiiii", and for the first time we kissed as a greeting. ^w^! It may sound awkward but we didn't use to do that, they we're lil gays but now they kissed me. It was really sweet. They we're heading ...

This may sound SO stupid to some of you like, wtf, what does she remember, like it's even important. Who does that, who keeps track... but like I said many times if you recognize the nickname from the title, that guy left a HUGE impact on my life & heart. Two years ago today, I met him. I wish I knew the exact time but it was on Pewdiepie.de... I can honestly say, the day my life turned around in every possible aspect. I don't like I know it to be honest... There's a huge difference between remembering something on purpose and just not forgetting something. You don't forget your feelings of your first kiss but you don't try to remember them, you don't force it, it just never fades out of your memory... Many things are like that with friends and love. I just didn't forget, I remember everything, but I don't honestly like I do from this point of view. I've known him for two years and maybe max 5 or 6 months have I talked to him, and I miss ...

I've been thinking and listening to one song, "Without you" from Breaking Benjamin and I know for who is that song or the whole album Dear Agony but I can't help but think of my friends... About Waqas, about Poroner, about My sweet friend, Kevin, even Mike...       Not all of the song fits but Poroner is out of my life, he has been for awhile and deep inside I truly miss him. I can't explain what he was to me guys. A guy I felt was my leader or something. His words were saint, his opinions were right and justified, he was... I was.. I don't know. He's just a part of my past now and I won't say it hurts, 'cause it doesn't in a way, but I still miss him. I regret just leaving. I came back to show my support, to help him, to be there and he told me I am a true friend for sticking for so long and still coming back after everything and then I just leave? I had a reason but it seems nothing compared to what I have lost... But I lost him way b...

Hellow everyone..! Well my last blogpost is still a bit true but ever since I got it out, things went a little better. I stayed in contact with Alex and we are talking in Skype as we speak. :3 Is it retarded I am shy to speak to him in a call over Skype but yet we went out and talked and talked, like, I know him in person...? :D I think it is but I don't know why I am... It's like that with everybody so no I am not in love with him... Anyway, I did feel alone but something wonderful happened that sort of amazed me. Imagine the kindness and sweetest someone has to possess to see just a few tweets about your meet sadness, sends you a message and tries his darndest to make you happy? I am talking about Aris to whom I am speaking to right now over Twitter. He's 17 I believe and he, for the past 3 days, got on Twitter to message me, just to see if  I'm happy and smiling 'like i should be'. If not, he tried to make me happy every way he could and didn't ...

My DEAREST best friend told me I HAVE TO KNOW THIS FOREVER, from her. <3 OF COURSE EVERY SINGLE BIT GOES FOR HER TOO . <3  When you're falling , you're crashing , when your fire has turned to ashes . When you're screaming , your heart is bleeding , when you're feeling like there's no reason I won't let you go. No, I won't let you go. 'Cause when you're all alone and it's cold and there's no one to hold , when you're feeling lost and there's nowhere, there's nowhere to go. When you're feeling sad don't forget you can reach for my hand.  When you're feeling down just remember I won't let you go. I won't let you go . When you're torn down , when you're messed up , don't you give in. No , don't you give up.  When you're drowning and you're fading , always know that I'm always waiting. And I won't let you go. No, I won't let you go .  'Cause ...

I want to answer a few questions I usually get asked or things that somehow people don't get about me. I will not leave another friend just because you and someone else don't like them even if i hang out with you.  Get that. I will not leave Susan, just because Annabel and Chelsey don't like her. I have no intention of walking away from Susan if you see me talking to her and it isn't crossing my mind to tell her, You know, Annabel and Chelsey don't like you so i can't talk to you. Just, no? I am the idiot there if i do that. I am the puppet, I am the weak idiot in Susan's eyes. Why would I do that myself, especially if I have an okay relationship with Susan? Why? I don't see a good reason. I have plenty of time to organize for all of you. I used the names as an example. I will not be gentle and try not to hurt someone if they already fucked up. A have a problem with a girl in school because of this and a few days ago, us 3 we were all in one...

It's May 30th... Do you know what that means? It's a very very special day. It's a day when a boy was born, a cute little, curly-haired boy, who grew up till this day to an 18 year old man. That boy, is called Houston, also known as My Sweet Friend. <3 Happy birthday to him! <3 Happy birthday to you! ;) I wish you the best of luck in the Air Force, I wish you the best of luck with your girlfriend, i hope you two stay together for much longer and for you to continue to be happy. I wish you all the best, all the happiness in life and may you live another 100 years. Hopefully, still beside your girl. ;) Don't get cocky because you're 18, don't get laid too much even though you're not that type, don't start drinking... All in all, don't become Charlie Harper. :3 Happy birthday buddy! :3 I love you. <3

Today pretty much sucked and i was stressed all day but there is one person, that no matter what i find i have to tell her, she always cares, she always worries for me, she always asks me multiple times if i am okay, always makes sure she said everything in her power to make me feel better. After school, Kristina was telling me all day that she needed to show me something after school and that it has to be today and she made me promise i will not ditch her and i was like... Noo? o.o But on a side note, we got some cokes, on cans of coke, you have like names written on them, sometimes even last names, some random writings. Today we saw that it said something like, "Heart", "Doctor". o.o I wish i could show you. xD ..i just googled it and this is the point; Of course here i think it's only on cans and of course Serbian names, letters, yeah. Logical. xD So, She took me to this little place, it's like... a backyard a little i guess, it's surrounded...

Guuuys! Ya know Psychopath? :3 Well, it's her birthday today! :) She turned 17 and is a big girl. I gave her a Birthday card... she liked it. x3 I hope. :) I haven't wrote, i know... It seems like weeks and not just two days.. o.o Unbelievable. BUT! I will again! Today! IIII am cooking lunch! :3 We're eating spaghetti and i told mom i want to learn how to cook some meals! :3 that's the first thing she told me i can and today, i am going to cook while she helps me. :3 I am nervous... I hope it doesn't turn to gross or somethin'... But she said if it's THAT bad that you can't eat it that we'll eat something else but she said why wouldn't we eat it. ;w; My baby will be proud of me! :3 <3 ANYWAY! Happy birthday Psycho! XD

It's officially a new month, April and it's officially Kev's birthday. :) I was the first to tell him that, i hope. I can't really give him a present, just maybe an online card. So, yeah, he turned... 16? 17? I'm not sure. :) Happy birthday Kevs! :) Hope that all of your wishes come true this year and that you live another 100 years, if you'd like. :) 

I have a wrote about this before but that was too amply. This is for a friend, who's girlfriend is moving away... and he asked if I have maybe some advice for long-distance relationships. Truth be told, I don't have much. I've been in merely two of them. 3 if you count two weeks as a relationship but it's not, to be real. I'm really sorry this happened and this blogpost will be deleted if you want but, all I can tell you is because you and K- know each other in real life and have been together for quite some time, if you really want to be with her and continue this, it's going to be a bit harder for you. For both of you. You're used to having her by your side and it will hard to adjust on a screen, voice and probably cam. Especially if you love her. Hell, it's even hard for me and Mike barely hears my voice and we haven't met. But that's because I love him and I want to feel him next to me. But it all comes down to just one, that all hav...

Yeah Houston! Go fy! Can you guys believe him!? My sweet friend <3: You wanna see hate?!  Fine Dont fucking answer me, see if I give a damn. Fuck off and ont bother talking to me anymore!...tee hee |♥Blue :3 ♥|: ...D': Okay... Fine! My sweet friend <3: Fine!  lolz |♥Blue :3 ♥|: Fine! The last time you'll hear from me is my next blogpost! I swear! Go and leave me alone! My sweet friend <3: How dare you! I dont want to be in your blog. I take grave insult! X3 |♥Blue :3 ♥|: Oh i dare! I don't care what you don't want! My sweet friend <3: Well fuck you too then! -slam door shut- Bug off! ♥Blue :3 ♥|: -shouts- FINE! My sweet friend <3: -mumbles to self-  it all HER fault im like this.....you dont even know me...... |♥Blue :3 ♥|: -tries to not listen and makes a blogpost-! I can't believe him! I don't wanna see his face again! My sweet friend <3: I Heard that! I take back ALLLLL the things i helpped you with!  -mumbles- Stupid ...