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I know something about myself that not many people realize, even after years of knowing me... I may be a hopeless romantic and I may love love and I may, maybe, imagine a snapshot of a what-if-we-were-together- wedding every time I see a handsome man on Tv or something but, I can't say I truly fall in love easy. One of the things, next to having to be able to make me laugh, someone needs to BE in order for me to feel sparks... is be cute. ^_^ ...I'll explain. A man can be hot, handsome, gorgeous, but that doesn't bring up much importance to me as when I find someone cute and adorable. Of course, attitude and character are 100% important but if you've already got cute covered, it's easier for me to get to know a guy. There has to be something in the guy, character or appearance wise that makes me go, "Awww that's so cuuuute!" at least once... Whether he talks cute or is clumsy and stumbles upon rocks, or starts talking fast when he's nervous ...

Oh my god you guys. . . Have you ever read a book and felt completely, drained? Lololol! I mean, my head is so fucking lost right now. For the first time in a very very long time I read a book and not just any book, a love novel! Called "Spremna da se veze" and what it means is, "Ready to tie" literally.You can add "herself" at the end. It's a little one, just 200 pages, I started yesterday. . . I finished around noon today! ^_^ I could NOT leave it, just sitting there on my coffee table and me not knowing what's happening to Matt and Jenny, just no. . . It's a Serbian book and the first time I have ever read anything like this and. . . OHMYGODILOVEIT. I love it you guys, I am so excited for some reason! I started reading it with my eyebrows raised and by the maybe 60th page, a smile did not come off my face! I laughed and felt butterflies multiple times over. Gosh! I'll tell you what the story is about but first, let me just say... I ...

Has anyone ever felt like they know they're so upset deep down that they just WANT to be angry instead. Just to numb the pain. I'm sounding really really dramatic and it's really not as bad as I make it seem but I am hurt and seriously - The past few WEEKS, I want to be angry and I actually am bitter all the time. I don't think there was a moment between this time that I didn't get angry or annoyed with someone over the smallest thing, especially if it's a facebook message. I've been avoiding even my mom the most 'cause she has the nagging habit and she asks too many questions at once - I BLOW inside when that happens.  It get's me so angry and I just want to tell her Bite Me all the time, but of course I don't. I hate that being angry about everything doesn't help 'cause I'm still not any better. Sad or angry it doesn't mean I'm getting any better. Although Poroner has been a help. It's amazing how with him very littl...

Okay, this is kind of hard, I'm not even sure why. Deciding to which people I want to talk about is difficult. I have Poroner on my mind, Kevin maybe and.... Do I need to point out names? It'd be weird to just type it out without anyone knowing for who it is, though. I don't know! This is hard for me! Alright... Let's start. I have no idea how many times I have mentioned this, but it's something I cannot get over or will ever until he realizes it truly. I am too much of a coward to show this to him personally, so he'll only read this if he get's on my blog on his own, unless someone shows him. I am talking about Poroner. You guys have no idea how much that guy means to me. I truly know how annoying it is to spam it around and I really try not to, this is like the 3rd time I write it in the two years I have this blog, but I really cannot wrap it around my mind. 1.  I am so thankful to him (he'd probably react like, dude, chill, I get it). This...

Ok... i realized something this morning. I was happy when i saw good weather is coming, the winds, the sun... the whole weather screams "Good energy!"... just like spring. Ever since winter started, i know i've had problems, but even after i got over'em,i was upset almost ALL the time. I don't mean to say that winter is my problem for being sad/depressed, just no, that's dumb. But i mean, if it's winter and i get upset for a good reason, when i look outside, it's dark, everything's naked, the trees, all of it is dead. Nature. It's harder for me to get better when it's like that... if i'm upset, i feel really bad. Ex; i feel like my life is crap and i'll never get out of bullshit,it's hard for even to try when i see no energy outside... Do you know what i mean? I'd look outside and like, the world is "always" going to be like this.. lifeless and dark and how am i supposed to think otherwise when i'm depress...

Two and a half men, Episode 24 in Season 3. Read it please... how a brother did something... and it get's so hit on his nose... Charlie decided to marry Mia and right before the wedding...