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This isn't blog worthy at all but since I've been really neglecting my blog and I love to write anyway, like, ok. I started writing every single day, I am sort of changing my lifestyle in a way, I can't explain it. I think Kalel was a big infulence for that, she's kind of like my role model, or at least someone I look up too 90% of the time and I started collecting all of these cute notebooks and I started writing things down, every single day. About my days, thoughts, some of the things I've learned if I have through the day. . . some stupid little wishes for tomorrow or the far future. Anything like that. . . So, I was like, I love that I'm doing this but I have my blog/public diary for that as well. Why am I not working on both sides, so here I am! ^_^ Lately, animals have been a lot on my mind and I keep going back to people who just, legit, bluntly DON'T LIKE animals. Just feel the need to get rid of them because . . . they don't like them? I ...

9 Satanic Sins and 11 rules of earth, definitely.

Ok... i realized something this morning. I was happy when i saw good weather is coming, the winds, the sun... the whole weather screams "Good energy!"... just like spring. Ever since winter started, i know i've had problems, but even after i got over'em,i was upset almost ALL the time. I don't mean to say that winter is my problem for being sad/depressed, just no, that's dumb. But i mean, if it's winter and i get upset for a good reason, when i look outside, it's dark, everything's naked, the trees, all of it is dead. Nature. It's harder for me to get better when it's like that... if i'm upset, i feel really bad. Ex; i feel like my life is crap and i'll never get out of bullshit,it's hard for even to try when i see no energy outside... Do you know what i mean? I'd look outside and like, the world is "always" going to be like this.. lifeless and dark and how am i supposed to think otherwise when i'm depress...

If you can't handle reading about someone's feelings and thoughts , don't fucking click "Continue" . If you're like that, you have no place on this particular blogpost. 

Fuck. you. You know what's one of the things i hate the most?  "She's a bit odd for me. I mean, i don't like those kinds of people, they're ugly. I think she has some kind of problem in her head, it's abnormal". Okay, there's this girl, Ana in my school. She listens to rock,metal,deathmetal, all kinds of metal,all kinds of rock, screamo. She likes to wear baggy shirts with band names written on them and likes to wear black. She's different. Yeah. Fucking so what? So what?!  The girl is just different!! She doesn't have a ring sticking out her nose or her eyelids and she doesn't have wholes that look like she's using drugs!  You don't even know her, you just see her passing by, walking!  She's just different from you! She has a different taste in music, she has her bangs died red! She's like that!  SO FUCKING WHAT! Explain to me, please, elaborate IF YOU CAN , why is that so bad? Why do you judge a book...

I don't like when i read tweets or hear people say, "Life is one, live it how you should" and all that crap when you're depressed or upset. Yeah, you're right but you're fucking annoying. Don't you think we all know that? But it's fucking easier to say it than do it. You have no idea how much you have to give up to have a mind like that, you have to not give a shit even about the things that make you happy. If that makes sense. It's fucking bullshit for people who are at that moment depressed. There is no point in telling a depressed person it's going to be okay. There's not much you can say, only do. And that's be there for'em. I hate those, "Life is one! There's no time for pain!". Life is pain. Life is happiness also. I really do understand that people who do say that mean well and want to help, but i hate when people push it, or worse, leave you when you say it over  100 times and you still try but fail. ...

I just don't like it. It was a really cool game when i first found out about it, not many people in my school at least knew too much about it too and it was fun then. I didn't care about the graphics, i just liked it, it's very creative. I started disliking it a lot whenever all of my friends started gloating and blabing to me about new servers coming up, Minecraft something 8, blah blah blah. I don't like it anymore. I've played it for awhile and honestly, now it's over-played. I know that's stupid to say cuz every game can be over-played but, if you want to put an exact label on it, it's... over-talked about, i don't know, i've lost interest in it. I honestly think of it now as a Lego puzzle. I hope you know what those are. I was on this forum a long,long time ago and there was this topic, something like, "YES! YES! MINECRAFT IN REAL LIFE SOON! WOULDN'T THAT BE AWESOME!". The only thing that i could think of is, "You ...