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In this new school, since I've changed I think a lot, at least to people who haven't talked to me in a really long time, I have A LOT, but in my school, people don't know me.. so they're confused. Tomorrow, we have a class that's called "Gradjansko" and it's mostly a class with topics and we discuss. It's really really cool. Ever since two weeks ago, I got a chance to state some of my opinions on stuff like Religion and The differences in people.  Everyone looked at me like, "O.o". One girl Andjela asked me as a joke how many college's did I pass. x3  Haha, it's not at all like that... I just OVER- think. I don't read... at all. But here are some questions they've been wondering about me... Why are you so serious all the time?  I'm not REALLY... I mean, I am with them and I was like that from the first day, but I'm very hard to get through, It's very hard to make me comfortable in person or even...

I'm about to lost my mind. You've been gone for so long, I'm running out of time... I need a doctor... Call me a doctor... I need a doctor, doctor... To bring me back to life . I told the world, One day I would pay it back.  Say it on tape and lay it, record it so one day I could play it back, but I don't even know if I believe it when I'm saying that.  Doubt startin' to creep in. Everyday is just so grey and black. Hope ; I just need a ray of that 'cause no one sees my vision. When I play it for'em they just say it's wack but they don't know what dope is and I don't know if I was awake or asleep when I wrote this, all I know is, you came to me when I was at my lowest.  You picked me up, breathed new life in me. I owe my life to you. Before the life of me I don't see why you don't see like I do.  But it just dawned to me, you lost a son. Demons fighting you, it's dark.  Let me turn on the lights and brighte...

I always needed time on my own. I never thought I'd need you there when I cry. And the days feel like years when I'm alone.  And the bed where you lie is made up on your side. When you walk away, I count the steps that you take. Do you see how much I need you right now? When you're gone, the pieces of my heart are missing you. When you're gone, the face i came to know is missing to. When you're gone, the words I need to hear to always get me thru the day and make it okay. I miss you...  I've never felt this way before. Everything that I do reminds me of you.  And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor and they smell just like you. I love the things that you do . When you walk away, I count the steps that you take. Do you see how much I need you right now? When you're gone,  the pieces of my heart are missing you. When you're gone,  the face i came to know is missing to. When you're gone,  the words I need to hear to alwa...

Hellow.   I know at what time I am writing this but I couldn't resist talking about something that happened to me a few days ago. I think it was Wednesday. :3   I went to buy a few books I needed like Chemistry and a Grammar and I did. I decided to walk back home and listen to some music. The weather was relaxing and I honestly wanted to waste a little time before dad went to work. ^w^   I was just about to cross a very wide street, and I looked down on my phone to change my song and when I looked up I saw 2 boys walking towards me, already smiling - Danilo and Matija. <3<3<3   I felt butterflies! Danilo and Matija are my middle and junior high friends! I didn't see them for I think 3 months. They we're already smiling to me and I said "Hiiiiii", and for the first time we kissed as a greeting. ^w^! It may sound awkward but we didn't use to do that, they we're lil gays but now they kissed me. It was really sweet. They we're heading ...

Haha, the ones that used to read my blog and expect my blogposts with joy are probably reading with wide open eyes, considering I write SO MUCH now. It's really not my fault guys. If I had an available laptop and Internet to begin with, I'd have at least 10 blogposts up Today, but I don't. ): Okay, If you are able to read a lot of text and are in the mood for a pretty sad chapter, read till the end. Others won't like this. I want to talk about something…Get it out on the open, you know? It's easier that way. I was thinking a lot today… I've been really horrible lately. To stay away from heart-breaks, let's talk about my life and my own attitude. I hate myself for it, I really do. Recently my dear friend Poroner added me again and believe me, that was the very best highlight of the time. I was so happy and of course, seeing his name makes me feel better. I don't know why he added me all of a sudden and I'm not going to question it. I might not lik...

It's my little brother's 2nd birthday! :3 I'm at my aunts and uncle's house and they have a computer and Internet and well, obvious. :) He's the cutest baby I must say! :3 I had real fun and I ate like a pig! My stomach is still bloaded but I cried to be honest for a little while, in the bathroom. I didn't want to ruin their day, it isn't a day about me so it wouldn't be fair. <3 I took a picture of myself with one of his caps or something, a yellow hat. People who work and construc buildings wear only in kid size... x3 How do you like it?! ^_^ I like it... I took lot's of more pictures but it's the only one I can at the moment. My tablet is out of battery and we didn't bring our charger soo, I can't show. I hope you like this one for now though. It's 20:24 and we're soon leaving. Mom and her boyfriend will drop me off to my house and well, I will most likely go to sleep. I return back to no Internet (except sometime...

Here you go all that's been happening and why I am so absent on my twitter, blog in case you cared and wanted to know. It all started from my dad giving me shit about making me use Internet so late at night and I can't say I at ALL regret it now, it was so worth it! BUT, then home construction began. That is, first we wanted to take some HUGE closet or something out of dad's room and that took awhile. From that the walls, then an idea for the bathroom, then re-painting, then the floors and finally, my room. In the mean time, I have been talking to my Hui a lot and to my Mikii! :3 If you don't know who I mean, where have you been?! XD I feel awful for the way I treated Mikii though... I treated him like a door mat the past month and a half and I have no excuse whatsoever. Saying I was just happy and didn't pay attention would be the grossest thing I could say, plus I'd lie. I was just a selfish bitch and didn't see anyone but myself until I felt the same ...