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. . . . . . Why? Guys. I have been working my ass off, I have been working my goddamn ASS off for everything to be perfect, why does it have to go to waste! Oh my god... Okay, Mike's birthday was 3 days ago and I planned WAY BEFORE IT...SO MUCH. I had all of these ideas, I was so excited, I was like 'Got this! Gonna make him so happy!', worked, filmed, wrote, edited. Spent a lot of good nights not sleeping, just trying to teach myself how to edit videos better, had all of the clips on my phone, always backed them up, always transferred them into my computer RIGHT AWAY so I don't mess up or forget or anything, I was so careful! Everything was going good, I was still late even though I started working before the date, but I didn't want to settle for anything less than perfection! I had so many beautiful clips of me talking, just... entire MOVIES, drawings, and me one-on-one to a video camera I finally got, telling Mike everything I have been holding for the

Phew, nice and chilly. Kinda happy that fool died, honestly. Hahah. Ya ready? Yeah, let's go.

I know something about myself that not many people realize, even after years of knowing me... I may be a hopeless romantic and I may love love and I may, maybe, imagine a snapshot of a what-if-we-were-together- wedding every time I see a handsome man on Tv or something but, I can't say I truly fall in love easy. One of the things, next to having to be able to make me laugh, someone needs to BE in order for me to feel sparks... is be cute. ^_^ ...I'll explain. A man can be hot, handsome, gorgeous, but that doesn't bring up much importance to me as when I find someone cute and adorable. Of course, attitude and character are 100% important but if you've already got cute covered, it's easier for me to get to know a guy. There has to be something in the guy, character or appearance wise that makes me go, "Awww that's so cuuuute!" at least once... Whether he talks cute or is clumsy and stumbles upon rocks, or starts talking fast when he's nervous

Guys, I read my book, ''To je bilo jedne noci na Jadranu" by Mir-Jam,  this morning...All I have to say, non stop something is happening, it's so interesting, NOTHING is boring, love, passion, pain, suffering, ROMANCE... Perfection in 400 pages! I HAVE NO WORDS. Oh so beautiful... I can't begin to describe. I won't give out what it's about, but if you're not into romance and love, don't read this. :3 (I wonder how many people actually dont?) I want to start my other one I also mentioned in my latest blogpost, Dreams of happiness. It's smaller than Mir-Jam, so it'll be finished in 3 days if I like it :3

Left  ◊  'Dreams of happiness' by Lusy Dilon Right  ◊   'It was on one night on the Adriatic' by Mir-Jam ^_^  I finished my book 'Only yours' I mentioned in a previous blogpost of mine and I LOVED IT. I'm getting in this reading streak I don't want to break because I'm truly enjoying it and having fun, SO... Now I am deciding which one to start with next.  I was actually good. I think at first I had like six books in my hands to choose from and I was like, this is insane, near it down woman! So I did, to these two...  ◊  Oh, ignore the David Edings books in the background and my phone. Just stayed there in the picture.  ◊ Mom has been recommending To je bilo jedne noci na Jadranu for so damn long, I think actually years. I love Mir-Jam's series, like Ranjeni Orao, and she says this is the most romantic of all of them. I am a sappy love person so I'll like it but something is drawing me off. I think Dreams of happiness is m

It made me cry hysterically when I first heard it, still makes me tear up sometimes. Made a wrong turn, once or twice.  Dug my way out, blood and fire. Bad decisions, that' alright. Welcome to my silly life. Mistreated, misplaced, missunderstood, miss knowit. It's all good , it didn't slow me down. Mistaken, always second guessing, underestamated. Look I'm still around.  Pretty pretty please don't you ever ever feel like you're less than, less than perfect. Pretty pretty please if you ever ever feel like you're nothing, you are perfect to me. You're so mean when you talk. About yourself you were wrong. Change those voices in your head. Make them like you instead. So complicated, look how we all make it. Feeling so much hatred. Such a tired game. It's enough, I've done all I can think off. Chased down all my demons , I've seen you do the same. Pretty pretty please don't you ever ever feel like you're less tha