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This may sound SO stupid to some of you like, wtf, what does she remember, like it's even important. Who does that, who keeps track... but like I said many times if you recognize the nickname from the title, that guy left a HUGE impact on my life & heart. Two years ago today, I met him. I wish I knew the exact time but it was on Pewdiepie.de... I can honestly say, the day my life turned around in every possible aspect. I don't like I know it to be honest... There's a huge difference between remembering something on purpose and just not forgetting something. You don't forget your feelings of your first kiss but you don't try to remember them, you don't force it, it just never fades out of your memory... Many things are like that with friends and love. I just didn't forget, I remember everything, but I don't honestly like I do from this point of view. I've known him for two years and maybe max 5 or 6 months have I talked to him, and I miss ...

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I've been thinking and listening to one song, "Without you" from Breaking Benjamin and I know for who is that song or the whole album Dear Agony but I can't help but think of my friends... About Waqas, about Poroner, about My sweet friend, Kevin, even Mike...       Not all of the song fits but Poroner is out of my life, he has been for awhile and deep inside I truly miss him. I can't explain what he was to me guys. A guy I felt was my leader or something. His words were saint, his opinions were right and justified, he was... I was.. I don't know. He's just a part of my past now and I won't say it hurts, 'cause it doesn't in a way, but I still miss him. I regret just leaving. I came back to show my support, to help him, to be there and he told me I am a true friend for sticking for so long and still coming back after everything and then I just leave? I had a reason but it seems nothing compared to what I have lost... But I lost him way b...

Hellow everyone..! Well my last blogpost is still a bit true but ever since I got it out, things went a little better. I stayed in contact with Alex and we are talking in Skype as we speak. :3 Is it retarded I am shy to speak to him in a call over Skype but yet we went out and talked and talked, like, I know him in person...? :D I think it is but I don't know why I am... It's like that with everybody so no I am not in love with him... Anyway, I did feel alone but something wonderful happened that sort of amazed me. Imagine the kindness and sweetest someone has to possess to see just a few tweets about your meet sadness, sends you a message and tries his darndest to make you happy? I am talking about Aris to whom I am speaking to right now over Twitter. He's 17 I believe and he, for the past 3 days, got on Twitter to message me, just to see if  I'm happy and smiling 'like i should be'. If not, he tried to make me happy every way he could and didn't ...

I am so feeling awesome! I got home and a ''present'' was waiting for me. Dad bought me a new awesome headset<3 They're the Genius HS- G530 headset. GXGaming :3 They are orange-black with a microphone. What I love is that dad's laptop backpack is also purchased at the Genius store and each GXgaming, thing,whatever, has a Scorpion as It's sign. We have THIS, EXACTLY THIS backpack but not the keyboard. We have a GX mouse, backpack and now a headset. It's really awesome. I have been wanting one secretly for long and he just bought it ^w^ There are no good pictures but this;  but you cant see the scorpion. -.- Im happy though! <3

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Good morning everyone first off :3 It's 11:30 and I ate breakfast and am going to shower in awhile. After that I'll most likely close the door of my room, blast music and dance around. ^-^ Mike is off today and I can't wait for him to get on to tell him what Jovana told me. I am so GODDAMN excited but I am scared to get my hopes up too much so, I'm still waiting for 100%, Jovana stepping off the plane. Anyway!   With my thumb! I hate my hands and fingers... they look weird.  I love'em so much! :3 They might look weird for you, that peachy color is a little odd, but I absolutely love them. They are super cute and just so... youthful? Gentle. ^w^ I took another but it was a fail... I tried to take a picture on the sunlight because they say it reflects the true color but no, it just seems yellow... LIKE sunlight. :D But they are seriously so more cute in person like everything else, but I hope you like them! I know I do.