You are living your story

Phew, nice and chilly. Kinda happy that fool died, honestly. Hahah. Ya ready? Yeah, let's go.

It made me cry hysterically when I first heard it, still makes me tear up sometimes. Made a wrong turn, once or twice.  Dug my way out, blood and fire. Bad decisions, that' alright. Welcome to my silly life. Mistreated, misplaced, missunderstood, miss knowit. It's all good , it didn't slow me down. Mistaken, always second guessing, underestamated. Look I'm still around.  Pretty pretty please don't you ever ever feel like you're less than, less than perfect. Pretty pretty please if you ever ever feel like you're nothing, you are perfect to me. You're so mean when you talk. About yourself you were wrong. Change those voices in your head. Make them like you instead. So complicated, look how we all make it. Feeling so much hatred. Such a tired game. It's enough, I've done all I can think off. Chased down all my demons , I've seen you do the same. Pretty pretty please don't you ever ever feel like you're less tha...

Has anyone ever felt like they know they're so upset deep down that they just WANT to be angry instead. Just to numb the pain. I'm sounding really really dramatic and it's really not as bad as I make it seem but I am hurt and seriously - The past few WEEKS, I want to be angry and I actually am bitter all the time. I don't think there was a moment between this time that I didn't get angry or annoyed with someone over the smallest thing, especially if it's a facebook message. I've been avoiding even my mom the most 'cause she has the nagging habit and she asks too many questions at once - I BLOW inside when that happens.  It get's me so angry and I just want to tell her Bite Me all the time, but of course I don't. I hate that being angry about everything doesn't help 'cause I'm still not any better. Sad or angry it doesn't mean I'm getting any better. Although Poroner has been a help. It's amazing how with him very littl...

She's only 17, her whole life's ahead of her. She hates school because the people there discredit her. Her boyfriend tries to show that's not how it seems. But everyday she just get's lowered with her self esteem. He let's her know that every night will have a brighter day. She's even tried to overdose and take her life away. She's feeling hopeless there, just sitting down beside her bed. And then he takes his hand and places it beside her head. He tried to hold her but with every touch she still resists. And then he sees the scars that bury deep within her wrists. She's feeling numb, he tries to beg and plead and ask her why. She says this way she has control of pain she feels inside. He's asking her how long it's going since you felt this. Way because you got me here just feeling so damn helpless. She says it's been awhile, I guess I needed better luck. And then he screams at her and tells her baby never cut. Nobody seems ...

Take my hand, let's go somewhere we can rest our souls.  We'll sit where it's warm. You say look, were here alone. I was running in circles. I hurt myself, just to find my purpose. Everything was so worthless , I didn't deserve this. But to me you were perfect. I'm scattered through this life. If this is life I'll say goodbye. She's gone like an angel with wings , let me burn tonight. I was running in circles. I hurt myself, just  to find my purpose. Everything was so  worthless ,  I didn't deserve this. But  to me you were perfect. I see me writin' on this paper, praying for some saviour. Wishing to intake and save her in a world so, so godless, so thoughtless. I don't know how we wrought this, all the love that you brought us. It feels like I'm killing myself , just willing myself, just to pray for some help. I'd give it all just to have, have your eternity 'cause it's all that assures me. It's worth a...

Should've known these walls would cave in. Should've never left my heart there on the line ,  'cause when the shit hit the fan all we ever had ended up lost in the fire. And now nothing's saved, nothing's gained. Was it all in vain?  'Cause I'm standing in the eyes of the storm and everything I've known is blowing away. I'm caught in hurricane. I'm leaving here dead or alive and I know that i'd be willing to feel the pain if it got me to the other side. 'Cause I only hurt , hurricane.  Yeah I can feel it hurt, hurricane. Remember how we were, we really were before this disaster came and tore us apart? It was the two of us, that was enough. The two of us, so in love. Till the wind of lies , the rain of cries , lighting strikes. And now we're standing in the eye of the storm and everything is gone. Nothing remains. I'm caught in hurricane.  I'm leaving here dead or alive and  I know that...

I don't wanna die. I don't wanna die. I don't wanna die so you're gonna have to. I don't wanna die. I don't wanna die. No, I don't wanna die so you're gonna have to.  Blood is getting hotter, body's getting colder. I told you once I'm the only one who holds her. I don't wanna die. I don't wanna die. I don't wanna die so you're gonna have to. I look inside of myself  and try to find someone else.  Someone who's willing to die as to watch you crying for help. I know that blood will be spilled and if you won't, then I will. My grave will never be filled. It's either kill or be killed.  So let heaven be told that some may come, some may go. Where I'll end up I don't know but I ain't dying alone. I keep on asking the question can I be saved by confession. You see this blood on my hands , at least they're still reachin' to heaven. I got to pick up the pieces, I got...

Friends Soundtrack Created by beeline29 and taken 44 times on Bzoink

1. Miley Cyrus - Wrecking ball  ''I came in like a wrecking ball. I never hit so hard in love. All I wanted was to break your walls. All you ever did was wreck me. Yeah you, you wreck me''.  2. I hate everything about you - Three Days grace  ''I, hate, everything about you. Why do I love you?'' 3. Rihanna - Diamonds  ''I knew that we'd become one right away. Oh right away. At first sight I felt the energy of sunrise. I saw the life inside your eyes. So shine bright, tonight, you and I, we're beautiful like diamonds in the sky''. 4. Taylor Swift - You belong with me  ''Dreaming 'bout the day when you wake up and find that what you're looking for has been here the whole time. Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you? Been here all along, so why can't you see? You belong with me''.  5. The little mermaid - Kiss the girl soundtrack :3 ''You wanna kiss t...

I don't want a lot for Christmas. There is just one thing I need.  And I, don't care about the presents underneath the Christmas tree. I don't need to hang my stocking there upon the fireplace. Santa Claus won't make me happy with a toy on Christmas day. I just want you for my own, more than you could ever know.  Make my wish come true. All I want for Christmas is yoou.  You, baby.  Oh I won't ask for much this Christmas. I won't even wish for snow.  And I, I'm just gonna keep on waiting underneath the mistletoe.   I won't make a list and send it to the North Pole for Saint Nick. I won't even stay awake to hear those magic reindeer click. ' Cause I just want you here tonight, holding onto me so tight. What more can I do? 'Cause baby all I want for Christmas is you ! Yooou baby.  All the lights are shinning so brightly everywhere.  And the sound of children's laugher fills the air. And everyone is singing, I hea...

They wanna see blood, they wanna see hate! Like a needle in your veins, a sickness with no name! In a world that's insane why's America to blame when you're praying for a change to a god with no face? They wanna see blood, they wanna see hate! Like a fuckin' AK, it's going up in flames! In a world that's insane why's America to blame when you're praying for a change to a god with no face? You can't tell me what to say 'cause I've got one religion  and I've got one decision, It's a big Fuck You. I can spit it in your face every month and every day. Every time you hear my name my middle finger's up too. You think I owe you but I ain't got no room for these hoes 'cause they're no good. I ain't living by your rules. You're getting old dude , for the liquor you blow it and you wanna be noticed but you're dying so slowly. So when they point the finger you flip one back and say "Fuck that...

There you see her, sitting there across the way. She don't got a lot to say but there's something about her and you don't know why but you're dying to try, you wanna kiss the girl. Yes, you want her. Look at her, you know you do. Possible she wants you too , there is one way to ask her. It don't take a word, not a single word , go on and kiss the girl . Sha la la la la la My oh my, look at the boy, too shy , he ain't gonna kiss the girl. Sha la la la la la Ain't that sad? Ain't it a shame?  Too bad, he gonna miss the girl. Now's your moment. Ya, ya, ya Floating a blue lagoon. Ya, ya Boy you better do it soon , no time will be better. Ya, ya, ya, ya She don't say a word and she won't say a word  until you kiss the girl. Sha la la la la la Don't be scared , you got the mood prepared, go on and kiss the girl. Sha la la la la la Don't stop now, don't try to hide it how you wanna kiss the girl. Sha la l...

Very soon.

Everyday, day, day I fall for you a little mo-o-ore. And every night, night, night I dream of you so beautifu-u-ul. Every time we laugh I see the sparks flying. Every time you blush I feel those butterflies.  Baby how we feel will always be in style forever and ever. This love is never gonna fade. We are timeless. We are timeless. My heart will never ever change. We are timeless. We are timele-e-ess and we're gonna la-a-ast.  Our love will always feel this way. We are timeless!  We are timeless...! Just 'cause it's a sweet short song. :3

I just now realized how much it can remind me of Poroner... at least from two years. Where was this when I needed it. ._. Not everything... just some parts I believe... Actually, maybe even all of it. I can add this for a few more people but he's on my mind at the moment. I might do this for a few other people. We clawed, we chained, our hearts in vain. We jumped, never asking why.  Jumped like, we rushed into things, never asking why or how it would end up. We kissed, I fell under your spell. A love, no one could deny.  Fell under his spell, I've talked about this. He was my leader, sort of... And yeah, no one could deny that I loved him, I did. Don't you ever say I just walked away.  I will always want you.  He can't ever say I just walked away because he did, I stayed. I can't live a lie running for my life. I will always want you.  Well, just the want you part. I came in like a wrecking ball! Sort off.. I just sort of pooped in between and...

Let's be clear, I hate it. This; And similar is NOT the Miley we/I know. I understand she's growing up and need to develop her own style, music and everything that comes with the music business and all, but if this is truly HER style, then I'd be happier if she stayed Hannah Montana forever. I hate the change, I hate the violence, it's all so vulgar and ugly. I don't see anything sexy, hot, beautiful, interesting or even watch worthy when you watch her videos. The song " We can't stop " is absolutely idiotic... "It's our party, we can do what we want". -.-  The rhythm is okay surprisingly at some parts but when you combine the words and the video, it's EW. There's nothing smart in there, not that there was too much of it before too, but this is just ridiculous. I don't know why I was shocked when I saw " Wrecking ball ", when I saw her naked completely hanging from a ball. I know I should expect it, but Jes...

There is a song, I would love to call it OUR song 'cause  she's the one who sent this to me and I freaking cried when she sent it and when I heard. I absolutely feel the SAME about her, the most beautiful words. By Avril, I won't let you go ... And I'm gonna do something, that makes me feel assured she won't ever. It's a little odd but I love it... ♡ When I'm falling , I'm crashing , when my fire has turned to ashes , when I'm screaming , my heart is bleeding , when I'm feeling like there's no reason , she won't let me go. No, she won't let me go . 'Cause when I'm all alone and it's cold and there's no one to hold,  when I'm feeling lost and there's nowhere, there's nowhere to go , when I'm feeling sad I won't forget I can reach for her hand.  When I'm feeling down I'll remember , she won't let me go.  ♡She won't let me go. ♡ ♡She won't let me go. ♡ When I'm to...

I'm about to lost my mind. You've been gone for so long, I'm running out of time... I need a doctor... Call me a doctor... I need a doctor, doctor... To bring me back to life . I told the world, One day I would pay it back.  Say it on tape and lay it, record it so one day I could play it back, but I don't even know if I believe it when I'm saying that.  Doubt startin' to creep in. Everyday is just so grey and black. Hope ; I just need a ray of that 'cause no one sees my vision. When I play it for'em they just say it's wack but they don't know what dope is and I don't know if I was awake or asleep when I wrote this, all I know is, you came to me when I was at my lowest.  You picked me up, breathed new life in me. I owe my life to you. Before the life of me I don't see why you don't see like I do.  But it just dawned to me, you lost a son. Demons fighting you, it's dark.  Let me turn on the lights and brighte...

I always needed time on my own. I never thought I'd need you there when I cry. And the days feel like years when I'm alone.  And the bed where you lie is made up on your side. When you walk away, I count the steps that you take. Do you see how much I need you right now? When you're gone, the pieces of my heart are missing you. When you're gone, the face i came to know is missing to. When you're gone, the words I need to hear to always get me thru the day and make it okay. I miss you...  I've never felt this way before. Everything that I do reminds me of you.  And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor and they smell just like you. I love the things that you do . When you walk away, I count the steps that you take. Do you see how much I need you right now? When you're gone,  the pieces of my heart are missing you. When you're gone,  the face i came to know is missing to. When you're gone,  the words I need to hear to alwa...

My DEAREST best friend told me I HAVE TO KNOW THIS FOREVER, from her. <3 OF COURSE EVERY SINGLE BIT GOES FOR HER TOO . <3  When you're falling , you're crashing , when your fire has turned to ashes . When you're screaming , your heart is bleeding , when you're feeling like there's no reason I won't let you go. No, I won't let you go. 'Cause when you're all alone and it's cold and there's no one to hold , when you're feeling lost and there's nowhere, there's nowhere to go. When you're feeling sad don't forget you can reach for my hand.  When you're feeling down just remember I won't let you go. I won't let you go . When you're torn down , when you're messed up , don't you give in. No , don't you give up.  When you're drowning and you're fading , always know that I'm always waiting. And I won't let you go. No, I won't let you go .  'Cause ...