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. . . . . . Why? Guys. I have been working my ass off, I have been working my goddamn ASS off for everything to be perfect, why does it have to go to waste! Oh my god... Okay, Mike's birthday was 3 days ago and I planned WAY BEFORE IT...SO MUCH. I had all of these ideas, I was so excited, I was like 'Got this! Gonna make him so happy!', worked, filmed, wrote, edited. Spent a lot of good nights not sleeping, just trying to teach myself how to edit videos better, had all of the clips on my phone, always backed them up, always transferred them into my computer RIGHT AWAY so I don't mess up or forget or anything, I was so careful! Everything was going good, I was still late even though I started working before the date, but I didn't want to settle for anything less than perfection! I had so many beautiful clips of me talking, just... entire MOVIES, drawings, and me one-on-one to a video camera I finally got, telling Mike everything I have been holding for the...

I know something about myself that not many people realize, even after years of knowing me... I may be a hopeless romantic and I may love love and I may, maybe, imagine a snapshot of a what-if-we-were-together- wedding every time I see a handsome man on Tv or something but, I can't say I truly fall in love easy. One of the things, next to having to be able to make me laugh, someone needs to BE in order for me to feel sparks... is be cute. ^_^ ...I'll explain. A man can be hot, handsome, gorgeous, but that doesn't bring up much importance to me as when I find someone cute and adorable. Of course, attitude and character are 100% important but if you've already got cute covered, it's easier for me to get to know a guy. There has to be something in the guy, character or appearance wise that makes me go, "Awww that's so cuuuute!" at least once... Whether he talks cute or is clumsy and stumbles upon rocks, or starts talking fast when he's nervous ...

Left  ◊  'Dreams of happiness' by Lusy Dilon Right  ◊   'It was on one night on the Adriatic' by Mir-Jam ^_^  I finished my book 'Only yours' I mentioned in a previous blogpost of mine and I LOVED IT. I'm getting in this reading streak I don't want to break because I'm truly enjoying it and having fun, SO... Now I am deciding which one to start with next.  I was actually good. I think at first I had like six books in my hands to choose from and I was like, this is insane, near it down woman! So I did, to these two...  ◊  Oh, ignore the David Edings books in the background and my phone. Just stayed there in the picture.  ◊ Mom has been recommending To je bilo jedne noci na Jadranu for so damn long, I think actually years. I love Mir-Jam's series, like Ranjeni Orao, and she says this is the most romantic of all of them. I am a sappy love person so I'll like it but something is drawing me off. I think Dreams of happiness is m...

Okay so it has been a little while ever since I've posted anything and I'm not counting Pewdiepie's charity event, I blogged that directly over YouTube. Quite awhile has happened if you can believe it, in the last 3 weeks that passed. Let's first start off with the second and last semester of this year is coming to an end, slowly, but moving. That scares the shit out of me, the future, anything related. =.= I talked to mom last night about it and cried, I was stressed like hell. Let's sprinkle some cute over that!; I have grown my family! Are you ready? . . . I have a new family of kittens now!That's not news?! . . . You're probably right but it's exciting and cute each time around! I didn't take any pictures of them yet, but hopefully I will soon. They just opened their eyes and I feel filled every time I come home and lay my eyes on them.  We've finally gotten some great, beautiful weather around here. It's really shinning right now a...

Has anyone ever felt like they know they're so upset deep down that they just WANT to be angry instead. Just to numb the pain. I'm sounding really really dramatic and it's really not as bad as I make it seem but I am hurt and seriously - The past few WEEKS, I want to be angry and I actually am bitter all the time. I don't think there was a moment between this time that I didn't get angry or annoyed with someone over the smallest thing, especially if it's a facebook message. I've been avoiding even my mom the most 'cause she has the nagging habit and she asks too many questions at once - I BLOW inside when that happens.  It get's me so angry and I just want to tell her Bite Me all the time, but of course I don't. I hate that being angry about everything doesn't help 'cause I'm still not any better. Sad or angry it doesn't mean I'm getting any better. Although Poroner has been a help. It's amazing how with him very littl...

Don't you just love how I placed them on my very cute shell-covered (not necessarily) jewelry box. :3 I needed the angle so you can actually see the cups but the reason they're my favorite and I always drink out of them is; The first one has Widder written out on it which means Aries in German and that's my sign, obviously. It's just kind of nice and symbolical off something I feel. The other one is just incredibly cute and just nice. It has a different texture on it, it can't be seen on a picture, it can be felt. The blue area feels like it has a matt finish and then the flowers and everything else is just shinny ceramic. It's pretty. ^_^ Dad knows they're mine and no one else uses them, they're usually in my room anyway. Clean or not. Just as he has his big and long cup that fits his coffee amount just right 'cause for him, this cup of mine is little. :3  Anyway! I just wanted to share! P.S. For those who care, I did my English competiti...

Hellow everyone! Just to update a little even though no one cares. All I can say I've been up to was related to school and maybe just a little of fun on the side and a little drama with my drear friends. I remember I met Bojana's boyfriend like a week or so ago, even before my last post. We spent literally all day together and then she and I went to the Blok practice and we actually made it! We got lost for awhile, but we made it! Petar is great, a little of my own style but she's happy so that's all that matters. What else? I can't even remember right now! I got into the school English competition once again! The teacher practically put me on the list, barely asked me but my reaction was an instant YES, I really want to. It can't go back in anyway. :3 It's tomorrow at 12:45 and our classes this week start at 14h... It will take at least half an hour and I'll have a whole hour to wait until, guess which class? English class...Hahah.  I also fixed my ...

I found them over Twitter and each time I googled it appeared to be true... Some are quite... odd and some I didn't know. In real life, Russi Taylor {the voice of Minnie Mouse} was married to Wayne Allwine {the voice of Mickey Mouse} :3 If you had 1 billion dollars and spent $1,000 a day, it would take you 2,749 years to spent it all.  In the Bible, God sent two bears to murder 42 children because they had mocked a bald man. Haha, some generous, caring and understanding God and church. Right? :3 One in 5,000 babies are born without an anus.  If you search for 241543903 in Google images, you will find a lot of pictures of people putting their heads in refrigerators.  There's a lake named Chargoggagoggmanchauggagoggchaubunagungamaugg, located near Webster, Massachusetts. If you Google 'zerg rush', Google will eat the search page. {its true!} The filling used in Oreo cookies was originally made from pork fat.  Smarter people tend to be more open-minded and...

I was browsing through some photos and my phone and I found a few ! I spent an hour deciding on the frames btw and I just went with some crappy one. Usual me. Anyway! Look at my angel stretching her liiiiiittle arms and legs. :3!! MY LITTLE ANGEL! Isn't this the cutest thing in the world!?  ♥ I love my sea shells collection that will hopefully get b THE CUTEST SHIT EVER.  I'm a true infatuated cat lover...  A beautiful orchid...  Have fuuun with these things guys! :3

Mom just came in my room and told me to close my eyes firmly and I did. She placed something in front of me and I didn't wanna open my eyes so I kinda just tried to "ransack" it with my fingers and there was something like, ickyyy... I was like, what the hell is this! She was like, open your eyes and I said I don't want to. I told her to close my eyes for me as I grabbed SOMETHING with my fork and she told me I did, I was scared to put it in my mouth but I did it!  Guess what it was?!  A sliced piece of orange! I right away said, "Oh! Fruit salad!" I love that, my favorite thing in the world! :3 Fruit! She actually did it 'cause we went to a "restaurant" look alike the other day and I ordered a fruit salad. Last time I was there I got a Fruit Cup that was with fruit and ice cream and whipped cream! It was really good and pretty! At the bottom, that's vanilla ice cream, in the middle there was I think oranges, pineapples, apples, ...

Okay, I only found one thing worth mentioning! :3 It is something that I will charish with me until I have my own kids, and maybe even after that. My best friend made it for me at the end of proom, like at the end of Junior High.  It's a pretty note book, with the heart she made all herself! People would say nothing about it is absolutely perfect but to me it is! It's filled with everything she ever had to say to me,all of her thoughts, fears for school ending, drawings of her and I, it's so beautiful! She gave it to me when we met one morning before school, I walked with her to her school. I walked back to my bus station and I could not read it on the way. I almost lost my way 'cause my face was buried in the notebook, I was smiling all the way there, I think people looked at me weird. I'm guessing, I didn't see them very well...  We have a picture together from proom but I don't wanna show that, many other people are in it behind it, that wouldn...

Okay this is going to be hard... Btw, I know it may seem like Im asking for a robot, but you know what... Meet Michael, you'll get all I'm looking for! :3 Make me laugh! (Fun) This may sound weird, but the moment someone makes me laugh like, naturally, something in me flutters above in the sky. ;3 That sounds so cheesy but it's true. Of course, not every single guy but if I find you off the blank attractive and you make me laugh, you're headed for a good start to make me like you. Note!; I don't mean jokes like, Oh why did the chicken do that or how does the blonde do this and that, no! I hate those kinds of jokes! I understand them, I understand what they meant but I do not find them funny, unless you want a smirk out of me. Then alright. P.S. There has to be chemistry involved! Be nice! Do I need to talk about this? I think that's kind of obvious but there are some guys out there who find it to being a jerk will make a girl interested more. I'm not on...

Same freaking sex Dramatizing As in, when someone, especially in my class has a boyfriend, the moment something isn't up to their liking or expectations they momentarily find the need to dramatize about it, saying the guy has changed, she can't stand him anymore, he's too stressful (He makes her actually think for more than 10seconds) and so on and so forth. Leading up from that, Oh my god, I wanna break up with him, this is just too much... You've been together for a week... Let the guy breath. Selfishness When a guy does something bad, you have to go on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on about how he's wrong, how much he's an idiot, unfair, jerk, retard, asshole, how he needs to change and you have the balls of steel when you're sending that over a text, (Yet you admit you'd never be able to do it in person). He needs to apologize, you don't give a shit, it's his fault, you couldn't care less to find out if b...

Well, these is a few things.  First one the list is school. I'm scared of the future as it is and thinking the worst when it comes to school scares and worries me. Like, if I maybe fail a class, or worse, fail a year. I'm sure I won't fail a whole year, but as an example; Biology and stuff like Physics kick me in the balls! I'm not a bad student, at all but eeh.. I guess that's first. The second thing is my health. This will sound very stupid but especially in the past two years, I've had health and sort of, ''mental'' problems because of everything that is going on. Till this day I have some symptoms and sometimes I feel it's getting worse and worse. No one really knows about this as much as me 'cause I almost NEVER talk about my problems or anything that is going on with me. I always have this voice in the back of my head that I can take care of things myself and about myself on my own and I really do, but I still do not share i...

I was bored waiting for my dad to come back home and I honestly, I'm not kidding here, I wasn't feeling like sitting for the computer so, I decided to draw something. I wanted to draw an animal, 'cause I don't even like to practice humans and I took a deer shot!  It turned out QUITE well for my first time... Ok, I had some help with the body, 'cause I have the body on one of my notebooks but I still mostly drew the pose by myself and face! I'm proud of it. :3 I am so proud of it's face. I mostly like how I drew the ears. It's legs are all bent out of shape but it's fine for my first time. I didn't want to stop there so I thought of drawing a sort of meadow/park thing behind it... This is what I have so far;   That little thing in the back is supposed to be kind of like a half-circle wooden bridge that I know I need to work on but there is where I got stuck as well.  I don't want to give up on it so I'm going to keep t...

Till tomorrow... But I guess that's okay! I get one more day with him. I'll be sad tomorrow again. But yeah! So far we've had lunch, I hate like a freaking pig, there was really a lot. Mom's boyfriend came for Christmas. Now, well, I'm just chilling. :3

Good morning everyoone, I know it's not Christmas for you, but it is Christmas for me! Yeey... Not really. I am woken so freaking early, this is unbelievably early for me and I woke up very very grumpy. I got myself dressed, brushed my teeth, washed my face, all that good stuff. I'm going to slap on a bit of eye make-up on and maybe lipgloss, and most likely do a selfie, for you guys to see even though you don't really care. :) I started styling my hair a different way. I used to keep it my hair line or however you call it right in the middle of my head, now it's more to the right and I have sort of bangs. I've forgotten what it's like honestly, but it looks very nice! ... I picked the wrong day to put on mom's mascara I swear. My eyelashes are freakishly long naturally, this mascara makes them hit against my glasses... It's freaking annoying! x3 I am quite nervous for today... I wanna be happy and cheerful 'cause Christmas means everything to my ...

Hellow everyone. Feeling kinda down right now to be honest. I just realized today is January 3rd and in four days it's January 7th... Not yey. It occurred to me Houston is going to leave in 4 days for the Air Force and he'll be gone for two and a half months completely. :c But though! There is one thought that's been keeping me very much up the whole 'morning' (I woke up at 11:30, so like, 3 hours passed, it's still morning for me, haha)! We were talking last night, or well early this morning and I mentioned I would love to have his hoodie. It's really awesome, its completely black with those white thingies around your hood, but it looks really amazing on him! He was like, ''Well I COULD send it to you...''. I got excited but I don't want him too at the same time. I don't want to take it away from him 'cause I would use it around my house and maybe even sleep in it. It'd be really big for me, like, maybe two sizes up away fr...

I don't know, I just felt like sharing my three little angels. The kitty that's entire black is Kooky and he's a little boy, the angel that's sleeping with his head backwards is Marbles and my little baby whore, Teeny. :3 No, just kidding, she's not a whore but she acts like one when she get's pissy with me. She's called Teeny because, even though it might not show on this picture, she's a lot smaller than her brothers. Their mom and aunt are somewhere in the house, they can never sit still and when you start cuddling them, there is no stopping and it's stressful after awhile. They're big cats. ;_;  I live for these little babies. ♥

Thanks to Poroner, as usual, I have found about something awesome! All of you know I love Two and a half men and I have grown VERY FOND of Charlie Sheen. I was sad when I saw he wasn't in the show anymore, the part suits him more, but, now I don't have to worry anymore. Apparently he started a new show, Anger Management I had no idea about and it's only up to maybe, 40 episodes so that won't be hard to catch up too. ^_^ i absolutely love hearing his voice again that hasn't been repeated over and over. (Like when I replay almost all 8 seasons of TAAHM #Obsessed). This show is about, from what I understood from the few episodes, Charlie's character - Charlie used to have anger issues and somehow became an anger therapist. When he realizes his anger issues are coming back... well, I'll have to keep on watching. :3 I watched the trailer for the show and there is so much irony going around, it's insane. The trailer is him walking on a train track, the t...