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This isn't blog worthy at all but since I've been really neglecting my blog and I love to write anyway, like, ok. I started writing every single day, I am sort of changing my lifestyle in a way, I can't explain it. I think Kalel was a big infulence for that, she's kind of like my role model, or at least someone I look up too 90% of the time and I started collecting all of these cute notebooks and I started writing things down, every single day. About my days, thoughts, some of the things I've learned if I have through the day. . . some stupid little wishes for tomorrow or the far future. Anything like that. . . So, I was like, I love that I'm doing this but I have my blog/public diary for that as well. Why am I not working on both sides, so here I am! ^_^ Lately, animals have been a lot on my mind and I keep going back to people who just, legit, bluntly DON'T LIKE animals. Just feel the need to get rid of them because . . . they don't like them? I ...

Is there a person in this world that will say anything other than, BAD, WRONG, HORRIBLE, SELFISH?  What is there to say? It's wrong. Betraying someone's trust is like the most horrible crime, it ruins everything. Not only the relationship but the person. The person becomes more insecure, has trust issues afterwards, why do that to someone? Don't cheat, break up with them on Monday and on Monday or Tuesday night, bang the other girl/guy you wanted, but don't be in a relationship with someone and go around with someone else, while your partner relies on you. It's fucking WRONG and unforgivable. I would never forgive someone for cheating on me. Cheating isn't a mistake, it's a choice.  You choose to find someone else for your own reason you THOUGHT was justified. THERE IS NO EXCUSE FOR THAT! Sure, getting together with someone else after two hours of your break up is in a way betrayal, I've had that happen to me but dude, why cheat ?!  It's gro...

Same freaking sex Dramatizing As in, when someone, especially in my class has a boyfriend, the moment something isn't up to their liking or expectations they momentarily find the need to dramatize about it, saying the guy has changed, she can't stand him anymore, he's too stressful (He makes her actually think for more than 10seconds) and so on and so forth. Leading up from that, Oh my god, I wanna break up with him, this is just too much... You've been together for a week... Let the guy breath. Selfishness When a guy does something bad, you have to go on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on about how he's wrong, how much he's an idiot, unfair, jerk, retard, asshole, how he needs to change and you have the balls of steel when you're sending that over a text, (Yet you admit you'd never be able to do it in person). He needs to apologize, you don't give a shit, it's his fault, you couldn't care less to find out if b...

I am seriously pissed off at the moment. For two reasons that caught my attention just now when Alex took his survey. For him, who is probably reading this, I suggest you don't continue 'cause we don't agree on this and I am just sharing out MY opinion. (READ TILL THE END IF YOU HAVE ANY INTENTION OF PARTICIPATING IN THE CONVERSATION) What's this thing about people thinking homosexuality being a sickness or a disease? A disease?! Are you just hearing yourself? Are you fucking real right now? I'm sorry if I seem like I'm hating on people who do find it as that, but let's be real, I kinda am. You cannot say, you cannot say that you're okay with having friends with a different sexual group than you and say they shouldn't be respected 'cause it's a disease. People who said this will understand. You cannot do that, that is just pure discrimination of the person. I will not get into the fact if it as a ''disease'' or not, you...

Soul mate - Two little words, one big concept. A belief that someone, somewhere is holding the key to your heart, and your dream house. All you have to do is find them. So, where is this person? And if you loved someone and it didn't work out, does that mean they weren't your soul mate? Were they just a runner-up contestant in this game show we call "Happily ever after"? And, as you move from age box to age box and the contestants get fewer and fewer, are your chances of finding your soul mate less and less? Soul mates, reality or torture device?  

Guys, It's the 15th of December and I don't feel a thing. I feel like we're at the beginning of September or something,and in like 15 days it's 2014... For Catholics soon it's Christmas. what the fuck... I am not so excited for 2014... I want it to come, I'm hoping it'll be a better year than 2013. I'm not making any sense! I want it to come but I don't have my hopes for it... 2013 was HORRIBLE for me... I absolutely loved 2012, hopefully I will 2014... 2012 was awesome... It was a little rough at first, with Kevs and all but I just went into a whole new journey at the time, thanks to Poroner. ^^ Something new was happening and I met Mikey that year and we got together then. A little while after I met Huii.. Not looking back, not any drama, fight, immature blow-off over Angel's and I's blog doesn't matter, none of it, it was all with the people I cared and met just not long before. ^^ I can't even say how I'd label my years...

I usually have nightmares when it comes to dreams. My dreams usually consist of either abnormal things that describe the things that are bothering me or stressing me out, or they are random and some inverted situation of how I'd like things to be. It's kind of confusing. To be honest, I very rarely dream anything, but when I do, it's a cycle and it has a reason. For me, it rarely happens that after a bad day, I dream anything or have a nightmare though that has happened if It upset me really bad. Usually, I don't dream anything until bad things repeatedly happen or the stress keeps on growing or moving onto the next day and the next, you get what I'm saying? Me being me, I keep the stress in and I don't cry, I don't let it out except for the usual methods; To take it out on the people that get across my path even though they don't deserve it but I tend to control that. If the stress keeps growing and moving on and I don't do anything, there w...

I just now realized how much it can remind me of Poroner... at least from two years. Where was this when I needed it. ._. Not everything... just some parts I believe... Actually, maybe even all of it. I can add this for a few more people but he's on my mind at the moment. I might do this for a few other people. We clawed, we chained, our hearts in vain. We jumped, never asking why.  Jumped like, we rushed into things, never asking why or how it would end up. We kissed, I fell under your spell. A love, no one could deny.  Fell under his spell, I've talked about this. He was my leader, sort of... And yeah, no one could deny that I loved him, I did. Don't you ever say I just walked away.  I will always want you.  He can't ever say I just walked away because he did, I stayed. I can't live a lie running for my life. I will always want you.  Well, just the want you part. I came in like a wrecking ball! Sort off.. I just sort of pooped in between and...

Let's be clear, I hate it. This; And similar is NOT the Miley we/I know. I understand she's growing up and need to develop her own style, music and everything that comes with the music business and all, but if this is truly HER style, then I'd be happier if she stayed Hannah Montana forever. I hate the change, I hate the violence, it's all so vulgar and ugly. I don't see anything sexy, hot, beautiful, interesting or even watch worthy when you watch her videos. The song " We can't stop " is absolutely idiotic... "It's our party, we can do what we want". -.-  The rhythm is okay surprisingly at some parts but when you combine the words and the video, it's EW. There's nothing smart in there, not that there was too much of it before too, but this is just ridiculous. I don't know why I was shocked when I saw " Wrecking ball ", when I saw her naked completely hanging from a ball. I know I should expect it, but Jes...

1. By being open!  I don't mean like, 'rude open' or to reveal too much too soon but I'm usually very weird as soon as I meet someone. It's kind of a habit to let them see that side of me first and it usually makes people laugh. Don't be shy or make me feel like I'm making you uncomfortable (Unless you really are, but then you have to tell me so I stop). Be yourself, if you're weird be weird, sing, say what's on your mind, tell me your opinions without fear, I'll make you comfortable believe me. (: Just don't be afraid to tell me or worse, lie about it so you think it fits. So, honesty as well.  2. By having an open mind! This is where we stand from. I don't like superficial or limited people who only think in their own box they've made themselves about everything in the world and decided it's 100% right their way and they won't even hear others. With me, you'll see the way I think but you can't answer ...

I realized a few things.. Please read until the end if you're interested, but I realized that I am an atheist but there Is one thing I am quite fond of believing in and it makes more sense to me to believe in it - .Greek mythology. I won't get into that, but I've been thinking, you know how everyone has an idol? Or their own hero they look up to? I think I found mine. Achilles.   Achilles is a mythical hero from all I know from this point of view and this century but I believe he was real. He was a half-god or demigod, because his mother Thetis was a nymph but his father wasn't. Peleus, he was a king ONLY I think… I love the way Achilles is. He never accepted someone rolling over him, telling him what to do, how and when to do it. Also known as Agamemnon. He was his own ruler, he believed in himself, his choices and decisions, his moves,  his sword and his shield. He was an atheist as well as me. If anyone's going to punish him for killing a priest, it wil...

For me it's the most important. In anything, especially relationships, of any kind. But trust isn't easy to gain for me, especially now. I was very very naïve before, I could trust anyone with anything, I wouldn't think of the damages or anything, probably because I never experienced broken trusts. Now I have a huge distance with people in general and I have this wall that's hard to break… I don't show my feelings until the person I am talking to does it first. I will do everything in my power to make you see you can trust me and if you start, I'll trust you with some things, not all of it… But if you never tell me what's wrong, don't tell me your feelings or anything, then I won't either . People really can trust me with anything, ask any of my friends… Especially guys. I'm not the girl who will judge you even if you come to me with a personal confusion about your body or something, but, I must really like you if I decided to trust you w...

Haha, the ones that used to read my blog and expect my blogposts with joy are probably reading with wide open eyes, considering I write SO MUCH now. It's really not my fault guys. If I had an available laptop and Internet to begin with, I'd have at least 10 blogposts up Today, but I don't. ): Okay, If you are able to read a lot of text and are in the mood for a pretty sad chapter, read till the end. Others won't like this. I want to talk about something…Get it out on the open, you know? It's easier that way. I was thinking a lot today… I've been really horrible lately. To stay away from heart-breaks, let's talk about my life and my own attitude. I hate myself for it, I really do. Recently my dear friend Poroner added me again and believe me, that was the very best highlight of the time. I was so happy and of course, seeing his name makes me feel better. I don't know why he added me all of a sudden and I'm not going to question it. I might not lik...

I call him just Ashton Kutcher, 'cause he's more known as that... but this man. :D ..Prrrr! :3 I would never have discovered this gorgeous man if it wasn't for the one and only Charlie Harper... Though I feel bad I had to find out about Ashton (Walden) by Charlie dying but still... <3 At first I was a grump and refused to watch the 9th and 10th season of TAAHM 'cause I was like... No? What the hell man? What the fuck! No Charlie, come on? Seriously?! No. But I gave it a shot and I find myself rarely hopping back to any season before the 9th and 10th. :D Anyway! I LOVE how he goddamn looks! I hate that he's twice my age, plus 5 more years...He was a model or is a model still I'm not sure but I do know he started modelling the 1998' in NewYork and all of this you can read in Wikipedia but oh mah gosh :3 I DON'T LIKE while he had the Billy Ray hair AND the beard, that was... weird, but he was still so very very handsome. :3 I wo...

I can't tell you how to make a relationship last for life or decades because I haven't done that. But If I had to answer that to the best of my abilities right now, I would say, 1. Be with the right person. Someone that you actually like and respect you know, someone you could be close friends with even if you had no romantic or sexual desires whatsoever. To put it bluntly, if tomorrow someone chops your mandrel off, would you still be Interested in your parther? There's your answer. :) 2. Don't take them for granted.  As time goes by it becomes easier and easier to forget what you have, it becomes mundane to you and you shouldn't let it, cause it isn't. 3. Talk about everything. Don't leave stuff unsaid, don't let frustrations build up. In any good relationship you're always on the same team so you have to trust each other, you have to work things out together. Disagreeing over something and fighting over something, while that's n...

I got a lot of attacks today from friends because I don't believe in God. It stated from me answering a question on Ask.fm on the topic and I compared God with Santa and the Tooth fairy. If you want to read, read till the end. If you any comments, corrections, put them down bellow. (Dean's line :D)  Why I don't believe in God is very simple, none of what priests or our religion believers say makes sense. I don't understand how someone can so blindly trust and believe that somebody out there that he has never seen before is real and is leading them to a good and true road in life. I don't understand how people have confidence that someone out there high up in the skies or wherever is listening to them, yet they never saw him, heard him or have any sort of proof he exists except that they WANT to believe he does.  Even if you do pray for something to work out, it doesn't necessarily mean God did you a favor. Karma is a powerful thing and is proven, or in ...

I want to answer a few questions I usually get asked or things that somehow people don't get about me. I will not leave another friend just because you and someone else don't like them even if i hang out with you.  Get that. I will not leave Susan, just because Annabel and Chelsey don't like her. I have no intention of walking away from Susan if you see me talking to her and it isn't crossing my mind to tell her, You know, Annabel and Chelsey don't like you so i can't talk to you. Just, no? I am the idiot there if i do that. I am the puppet, I am the weak idiot in Susan's eyes. Why would I do that myself, especially if I have an okay relationship with Susan? Why? I don't see a good reason. I have plenty of time to organize for all of you. I used the names as an example. I will not be gentle and try not to hurt someone if they already fucked up. A have a problem with a girl in school because of this and a few days ago, us 3 we were all in one...

I don't know. Everyone in my school, at least my class friends keep saying, "I can't wait to get out of of here!", "This school is so ugh!", "I can't wait to grow up and get out of here!Go to higher schools!". I don't get it... all i want is to go back to 1st grade and learn what 2 plus 3 is. ^w^ It's 22 right? :3 No jk, i know it's 5. =v= But seriously, with next term coming closer i keep wanting to go back. One day we'll look back and cry, at least i will. It's hard for me to say goodbye to my school and friends...but i know that times flows within' seconds. I'm not saying i get those, "uuuuh! I hate school! Come on classes! Be over!", moments, let's be real you're going to miss it when it's finished. You'll look back and wish for just 3 more seconds to sit in your class chair. ^w^ But that's my opinion. :) I know i did.. I cried when i got to 5th grade and finished my 4 years wi...

Alright, after a few days someone told me i am against homosexuality even though that person obviously doesn't know her info, i started talking to some of my friends what they think. Here are some of their answers, or all in one; "Eww! It's a sickness! Illness! Whatever! It's sick to love the same kind of person!! They should just be burnt. It's sick! Nothing more to tell!". "Why do you think it's sick? What's sick in it?". "Hello?! You love and kiss your own...? You kiss a girl in the mouth? Or, ew! Guys!" "If GOD wanted people to love the same sex and to have people making love with the same sex, he would do it that way!!". So yeah. We're back to our GOD conversation. What the fuck does this have to do with God? Alright. God was there when the world started. God was there when fire was just discovered. God was there on the big flood.  God was there in IceAge. God was there when cave people starte...